03-19-2018, 03:22 PM
I'm becoming more aware of me lying to myself once again. I felt this heavily while using Universal Detox, and it's been on and off with SE. Today, though, it's been amping up, and how I have handled it is to basically tell my thoughts before fully editing them. I rode with a driver I've known for 2 years now, and he's a pastor. We talked a lot about spiritual stuff, which I repeatedly went into, for one clear reason. (Rule 4 though).
I kept telling on myself in our conversations. I'd normally fear this.....but it actually relaxed us both since I was not being phony or expecting him to "solve my problems". Near the end of our day he complimented me--and I realized subs are making a big difference in my life. He said I talked differently today vs. when he first met me. I asked him what he meant. He said I laugh a lot more. We'd been cracking jokes all day, some on coworkers, the boss...and even ourselves.
This was a great day. It made me want to come home and soak up SE again. I'd begun my day feeling good (I'd sent my daughter some money I'd promised her) and it ended well too. This was a fun, beautiful, very good day.
I kept telling on myself in our conversations. I'd normally fear this.....but it actually relaxed us both since I was not being phony or expecting him to "solve my problems". Near the end of our day he complimented me--and I realized subs are making a big difference in my life. He said I talked differently today vs. when he first met me. I asked him what he meant. He said I laugh a lot more. We'd been cracking jokes all day, some on coworkers, the boss...and even ourselves.
This was a great day. It made me want to come home and soak up SE again. I'd begun my day feeling good (I'd sent my daughter some money I'd promised her) and it ended well too. This was a fun, beautiful, very good day.
I want to be FREE!
