03-13-2018, 03:14 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-13-2018, 03:22 AM by guyinlahore.)
Day 109
I am feeling better but very kind of demotivated. I want to go away, away from home, family and work and spend some days in quiet place.
I have been able to restart working on my part time online businesses and able to concentrate on it on a daily basis. I started it many years back but could be consistent with it. Overall I am much organized, but I think my daily routine is kiling me. I want to have a break and then come back again. I might be travelling this weekend for a day or two out of city for office meeting. The meeting is a short
one but the travelling time means I will be out of city for 2 days. That might bring some momentary change in my life.
The sub made me feel better in the earlier months. Now i think it has started to address some deep issues and childhood traumas. Its like you are going on a straight road and come accross a speed breaker. The front of your vehicle lifts up. I have kind of that feeling right now. Its like I am going throught some small thing which is affecting my inner self. Its like a sort of temporary upheavel, which at the
moment feels will come down or maybe not.
Right now I am addressing my fears. Social fears that is. In various social situations, I have always behaved in a particular pattern. now I am questioning that pattern. I have always been conforming to the situation. I have started to question my behaviour at times and have started to face the fear. e.g if I do something which I want to do, what will happen, why I am not doing it and in particular I have been thinking why am i afraif? what is scaring me? what is forcing me to not act on my intentions / plans?
i reduced the time of the sub to 8 hours but not much difference in terms of tiredeness. I have now increased it back to 12 hours and sometimes to 14-16 hours. Although I have changed my sleeping time and I am now trying to sleep 30 mins to 1 hour earlier. I have noticed difference.
I have also started to be a bit expressive about my emotions. I had a problem about a product warranty and and I expressed myself completely and told the other person how I was feeling. this was huge. I used to get angry and my hands and limbs would start shaking but I would not be able to say anything. It was totally different.
I am getting slight impatient about using the sub. I was earlier thinking of shifting to E2 but now I think I may not be able to keep it up. I mean if I buy E2 I will still want to run it at least 3 months to get some benefit. I am tight on budget. I am getting good results from Version 1, and now want to try some other sub to achieve things in my life. I am thinking of Ultra Success and Luck Magnifier combo. My plan is to finish 6 months of EPRHA and then move one, otherwise it will be difficult to do the 6 months run again.
I have faced lots of problems in my job career and money wise (intention wise). I want to finish the sub and move on to manifest some good things mainly lots of money in my life.
Overall I am happy about the changes the sub is bringing in me and the fact that I have managed to listened to it for more than 3 months now. Overall I am also a bit sad about the things I have been going through in my life in my childhood and the good and wonderful things I have missed out.
I also feel that more than half my life has already passed. (I am 40) and I have not achieved / gotten things which people around me have so easily achieved. kind of depressing. I plan to listen to the sub till end of May and complete 6 months in total. This seems like a long long way to go.
I have also felt some layers of me peel off and I am starting to realize and know about some things inside me. One is the lack of money or I would say the scarcity of money. Although I am not poor and have enough money but when I compare to my peers I find myself quite below. My early childhood was quite tough in terms of money. My parents could not afford to buy good toys. That affected me a lot in my life. One of my goals in life is to get rich, very rich. So far I am struggling. I have read lots of books on law of attraction, getting rich, money courses but never been able to succeed with it. Now I am started to realize some of the limiting beliefs or blocks as people say. I have started working on some thoughts but I plan to do something more when this sub is over.
I am feeling better but very kind of demotivated. I want to go away, away from home, family and work and spend some days in quiet place.
I have been able to restart working on my part time online businesses and able to concentrate on it on a daily basis. I started it many years back but could be consistent with it. Overall I am much organized, but I think my daily routine is kiling me. I want to have a break and then come back again. I might be travelling this weekend for a day or two out of city for office meeting. The meeting is a short
one but the travelling time means I will be out of city for 2 days. That might bring some momentary change in my life.
The sub made me feel better in the earlier months. Now i think it has started to address some deep issues and childhood traumas. Its like you are going on a straight road and come accross a speed breaker. The front of your vehicle lifts up. I have kind of that feeling right now. Its like I am going throught some small thing which is affecting my inner self. Its like a sort of temporary upheavel, which at the
moment feels will come down or maybe not.
Right now I am addressing my fears. Social fears that is. In various social situations, I have always behaved in a particular pattern. now I am questioning that pattern. I have always been conforming to the situation. I have started to question my behaviour at times and have started to face the fear. e.g if I do something which I want to do, what will happen, why I am not doing it and in particular I have been thinking why am i afraif? what is scaring me? what is forcing me to not act on my intentions / plans?
i reduced the time of the sub to 8 hours but not much difference in terms of tiredeness. I have now increased it back to 12 hours and sometimes to 14-16 hours. Although I have changed my sleeping time and I am now trying to sleep 30 mins to 1 hour earlier. I have noticed difference.
I have also started to be a bit expressive about my emotions. I had a problem about a product warranty and and I expressed myself completely and told the other person how I was feeling. this was huge. I used to get angry and my hands and limbs would start shaking but I would not be able to say anything. It was totally different.
I am getting slight impatient about using the sub. I was earlier thinking of shifting to E2 but now I think I may not be able to keep it up. I mean if I buy E2 I will still want to run it at least 3 months to get some benefit. I am tight on budget. I am getting good results from Version 1, and now want to try some other sub to achieve things in my life. I am thinking of Ultra Success and Luck Magnifier combo. My plan is to finish 6 months of EPRHA and then move one, otherwise it will be difficult to do the 6 months run again.
I have faced lots of problems in my job career and money wise (intention wise). I want to finish the sub and move on to manifest some good things mainly lots of money in my life.
Overall I am happy about the changes the sub is bringing in me and the fact that I have managed to listened to it for more than 3 months now. Overall I am also a bit sad about the things I have been going through in my life in my childhood and the good and wonderful things I have missed out.
I also feel that more than half my life has already passed. (I am 40) and I have not achieved / gotten things which people around me have so easily achieved. kind of depressing. I plan to listen to the sub till end of May and complete 6 months in total. This seems like a long long way to go.
I have also felt some layers of me peel off and I am starting to realize and know about some things inside me. One is the lack of money or I would say the scarcity of money. Although I am not poor and have enough money but when I compare to my peers I find myself quite below. My early childhood was quite tough in terms of money. My parents could not afford to buy good toys. That affected me a lot in my life. One of my goals in life is to get rich, very rich. So far I am struggling. I have read lots of books on law of attraction, getting rich, money courses but never been able to succeed with it. Now I am started to realize some of the limiting beliefs or blocks as people say. I have started working on some thoughts but I plan to do something more when this sub is over.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
