Day 7 1/3/2018
Felt the rage subside a little bit today. But also woke up with a dry throat and blocked nose, coincedence? It is cold at the moment but I just don't get ill, if I do it's perhaps once in 2 years and only for a day or two. It's almost like the subconscious knows that I know the rage is a resistance response and has given up and is now trying to make me ill instead, 2 days before I have another date arranged, again coincedence?
Anyway, I ended up speaking to myself for about 5 minutes saying "this cold isn't gonna stop me and i'm just gonna keep listening whatever you do". Hopefully the subC will get the message haha.
Went to yhe supermarket to get medicine, there was a girl there filling shelves. Saw her glancing at me for more than a few seconds, was almost a bit creepy.
Another note, I don't FEEL that attractive right now, i've been trying to grow a beard recently and i'm about 2 weeks in where it just looks all patchy and like I can't be bothered to shave, haven't decided whether to keep it for this date or not yet.
Felt the rage subside a little bit today. But also woke up with a dry throat and blocked nose, coincedence? It is cold at the moment but I just don't get ill, if I do it's perhaps once in 2 years and only for a day or two. It's almost like the subconscious knows that I know the rage is a resistance response and has given up and is now trying to make me ill instead, 2 days before I have another date arranged, again coincedence?
Anyway, I ended up speaking to myself for about 5 minutes saying "this cold isn't gonna stop me and i'm just gonna keep listening whatever you do". Hopefully the subC will get the message haha.
Went to yhe supermarket to get medicine, there was a girl there filling shelves. Saw her glancing at me for more than a few seconds, was almost a bit creepy.
Another note, I don't FEEL that attractive right now, i've been trying to grow a beard recently and i'm about 2 weeks in where it just looks all patchy and like I can't be bothered to shave, haven't decided whether to keep it for this date or not yet.
