02-25-2018, 06:36 PM
Ya'll know what's crazy? And I hate to be like this but I'm gonna be real. Part of me...is still somewhat worried about DMSI being able to work. Crazy right? I mean, even after seeing what I just saw these past few weeks and even after the self-effects I'm feeling (low anxiety, clear headed, etc.) I STILL am a bit worried about this program. STILL f*cking worried man. And logically it makes no sense. I mean if you want to get technical on V3.1 I literally had about 3 instances where I got offered sex (design goal baby!!!) and was able to get phone sex out of one of those instances. I'm 3 days into actual usage of V3.2 and managed to get a shy chick to agree to a casual relationship and guess what? I'm STILL (deep down) a bit worried. It's like I feel most of this ain't real or ain't going to last.
My biggest worry is that all this is going to go away. That the positive results I experienced will be just like my V3.1 run where I got a little bit of success but extremely sparse success. Part of me just wants to quit and run away. But I know why. It's because now, I fear I won't match the success I experienced or even worse, the fear that NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN and everything I experienced was placebo.
But I'm going to keep going. The self-effects alone are reason enough to continue. It's amazing how much anxiety, porn, and fantasy was taking up my mental time. To have them be reduced this much is remarkable. In a few weeks I'll be going on spring break to the Caribbean islands. Hoping the reality bending and all the other stuff kicks in. Frankly, getting success with women isn't the only thing I want because I've been able to get that in the past. What I want from V3.2 is consistent results as far as women is concerned. I know what success feels like. I want to know what it feels like to be successful on a consistent or at least semi-consistent basis with women. I know that 100% of the inconsistency is MY fault due to some of my own issues but hopefully that becomes a thing of the past.
Sorry for the long boring post guys but wanted to deliver some "mental data" to the bossman. Hopefully we'll have some spicier stories in the coming weeks.
My biggest worry is that all this is going to go away. That the positive results I experienced will be just like my V3.1 run where I got a little bit of success but extremely sparse success. Part of me just wants to quit and run away. But I know why. It's because now, I fear I won't match the success I experienced or even worse, the fear that NOTHING IS GOING TO HAPPEN and everything I experienced was placebo.
But I'm going to keep going. The self-effects alone are reason enough to continue. It's amazing how much anxiety, porn, and fantasy was taking up my mental time. To have them be reduced this much is remarkable. In a few weeks I'll be going on spring break to the Caribbean islands. Hoping the reality bending and all the other stuff kicks in. Frankly, getting success with women isn't the only thing I want because I've been able to get that in the past. What I want from V3.2 is consistent results as far as women is concerned. I know what success feels like. I want to know what it feels like to be successful on a consistent or at least semi-consistent basis with women. I know that 100% of the inconsistency is MY fault due to some of my own issues but hopefully that becomes a thing of the past.
Sorry for the long boring post guys but wanted to deliver some "mental data" to the bossman. Hopefully we'll have some spicier stories in the coming weeks.
