5G Absolute Self Confidence - Progress Journal

[ShanghaiKiwi]

First post full edit and then title.

Thanks! Got it, adjusted title to the correct sub.
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Yeah so tonight I was at dance practise and we were doing an excercise learning how to lead and follow, the girl I was dancing with flirted with me and said with a wink, "you can make me do anything you want!" (its funny because as a lead, I dictate her dance moves - but she wasn't talking about dancing here).

I didn't expect it and didn't really know how to handle it so I just laughed and joked "within limits of course!" and she said something about me not leading her off cliffs, which kind of nullified the sexuality of the comment, I think. Perhaps she retracted her outrageously flirty comment because I didn't respond as sexually as she had hoped?

On the one hand I'm super happy because of the flirting, on the other hand I'm disappointed with myself for not escalating it. I should have said something about stopping by at the hardware store after class to pick up some rope and cable ties. Its a 50 shades reference.

So I'm making definite progress - I'm actually getting women flirting with me lol, thats a good sign. But I definitely haven't arrived yet, I have a long way to go. For one I wasn't bold enough to match her flirting, also I clearly still give too much of a shit because here I am writing about it on the internet more than two hours later lol.

Things have been noticeably different with women recently. They're always happy to see me (except a few snobs, but fuck them) and they often want my attention. Its new and I love it. I'm not used to it. It doesn't hurt that my dancing skills are improving but its more my confidence and the way I hold myself. I stopped caring about getting a gf or going on dates, and now I'm making friends with all these beautiful women. You might think thats normal, but I'm a guy who hardly had any conversations with women at all for 12 years while I was in a religious cult (besides being married, but that sucked, there was definitely no flirting) and I suffered from *really* awkward social anxiety. Just late last year I was stuttering whenever talking to pretty women and they didn't really seem to notice me, it so much different now after only a month of the sub. I'm super happy about it and wish I did it years ago.


*Edit: Just realised the girl who flirted with me tonight was the same one I ate dinner with in the first post of this thread