I experienced something early on with Universal Detox (UD), and I'm feeling it now with SE.
It's an awareness of my own habitual, fear-driven, and survival minded BS. I'll lie in a heartbeat to look good in front of others. I've not been social in the last 24 hours (after getting off work yesterday), but I'm seriously questioning my honesty now. I became aware of it in my first post here, since "looking good" was (maybe still is) an old known survival feel-good tool.
It bothers me. Most of my (imagined) interactions are based off old tools. I don't like me when I lie, lie, lie. This must be a clearing stage.
TBH, I'm a little insecure sharing since my old MO was seeking attention when I had problems.
I'm not up. I'm not down.......well, I feel a little sad. However, I know letting go, or grieving, is a good thing. Yet a little fear surfaces since this is "new".
Not major problems, just part of the journey.
Thanks to Greenduck for saying "think less, feel more" in a post of his. I need more of that.
It's an awareness of my own habitual, fear-driven, and survival minded BS. I'll lie in a heartbeat to look good in front of others. I've not been social in the last 24 hours (after getting off work yesterday), but I'm seriously questioning my honesty now. I became aware of it in my first post here, since "looking good" was (maybe still is) an old known survival feel-good tool.
It bothers me. Most of my (imagined) interactions are based off old tools. I don't like me when I lie, lie, lie. This must be a clearing stage.
TBH, I'm a little insecure sharing since my old MO was seeking attention when I had problems.
I'm not up. I'm not down.......well, I feel a little sad. However, I know letting go, or grieving, is a good thing. Yet a little fear surfaces since this is "new".
Not major problems, just part of the journey.
Thanks to Greenduck for saying "think less, feel more" in a post of his. I need more of that.
I want to be FREE!
