I woke up, cleaned my house for 4 hours, scrubbed the walls in my room and bathroom. (to prepare for my date at 6), I went to gym after cleaning for hour then I went to pool/hot tub for 2 hours. I was in the perfect condition and state for the date and 2 hours before the date I sent her a text asking for address. She opened the text up hour later and then hasnt responded yet.
I messaged her saying "Do you want to chill still or should I make other plans?" No response.
So I messaged this other chick that I've been talking to randomly on snapchat that I picked up at the mall month or so ago.
I said "My date for tonight is flaking I think, would you like to go to dinner tonight at 6?"
long story short, she said its tempting and she was thining abotu it for a while, but she ended up telling me that she has bad anxiety today and is in't in the mood to go out she just wanted to stay in.
I know she was being genuine. So I said thats not a problem at all, i hope to see you in the future when your feeling better" She said "for sure!"
The crazy thing is I was talking to her about the other chick like it didn't matter at all if she knows im dating other people too. It was amazing because I never do that. Her reaction was great, she even called the other girl rude for ignoring me.
I noticed big changes happening with self esteem.
Major changes, im at an all time high now, even stronger mentally then I was on AM, or on DMSI. or any other program.
Self esteeem is what I was lacking.
Interacting with random people today I feel like a different person. I am even more comfortable and relaxed and myself in social situations then in the past.
Even going to the gym was easier today, perhaps because I had a date but I felt great.
I don't know if this will work or not but I just messaged the chick that flaked and said
I still want to meet you but since you flaked on me
il only go out with you if you pay
i was looking forward to seeing you all day.
Honestly have no idea if that will work or not but my mind told me to say it so il see if it works or not. perhaps thats what a high self esteem is. or perhaps il fail. either way idgaf. she flaked and she has to make it up to me.
I can't wait to be on this program for extended period of time. I've only been on it for a week or so.
I messaged her saying "Do you want to chill still or should I make other plans?" No response.
So I messaged this other chick that I've been talking to randomly on snapchat that I picked up at the mall month or so ago.
I said "My date for tonight is flaking I think, would you like to go to dinner tonight at 6?"
long story short, she said its tempting and she was thining abotu it for a while, but she ended up telling me that she has bad anxiety today and is in't in the mood to go out she just wanted to stay in.
I know she was being genuine. So I said thats not a problem at all, i hope to see you in the future when your feeling better" She said "for sure!"
The crazy thing is I was talking to her about the other chick like it didn't matter at all if she knows im dating other people too. It was amazing because I never do that. Her reaction was great, she even called the other girl rude for ignoring me.
I noticed big changes happening with self esteem.
Major changes, im at an all time high now, even stronger mentally then I was on AM, or on DMSI. or any other program.
Self esteeem is what I was lacking.
Interacting with random people today I feel like a different person. I am even more comfortable and relaxed and myself in social situations then in the past.
Even going to the gym was easier today, perhaps because I had a date but I felt great.
I don't know if this will work or not but I just messaged the chick that flaked and said
I still want to meet you but since you flaked on me
il only go out with you if you pay
i was looking forward to seeing you all day.
Honestly have no idea if that will work or not but my mind told me to say it so il see if it works or not. perhaps thats what a high self esteem is. or perhaps il fail. either way idgaf. she flaked and she has to make it up to me.
I can't wait to be on this program for extended period of time. I've only been on it for a week or so.
