02-15-2012, 11:35 AM
Well I am now almost at the end of stage 2 now (3 Days left).
I must say things have really changed. Over the last couple of weeks things have really become stable. I am now at the point where I can concentrate at work and am relatively at peace with where I am right now.
I am under the belief that stage 2 is part of the normalization process. So i'm hoping stage 3 is where the building begins.
Just looking back at where I was 2 months ago. I literally could not concentrate at work, It got so bad I was put on performance review. I would go into a tail spin of emotions whenever I heard from my ex that would last for days. Now when I hear from her i'm emotional for around 15 minutes before I just let it go.
In the last week I have had comments from people about how much I've changed and how I've lost weight and how much stronger I seem. I don't know if this is due to alpha male or due to the circumstances at the time but I feel its a bit of both. I can now say I'm content being single and not having women for now and its the first time I can ever say that since I was 14.
Now where i'm hoping to head. I would like to become more social and start to build up more of a sense of humor. I would also like to continue improving my body and getting into shape as well as cut down further on the neediness so I can truly come from a place of wanting to be with a women instead of feeling like I need to (This is something I have never had in my life).
So a recap of stage 2
* For me I feel like this has normalized and stabalised me emotionally. I'm not completely there yet but most of the way
* I also feel it has made me less social but at the same time care less about being social and coming more from a place of wanting than needing
* I feel like I have more easily been able to let things go
* A little more in the moment
* Feeling more content even though I am very negative at the moment (Sounds contradictory but I believe contentment and negativity to be separate)
* More able to feel that i'm OK
* More able to just accept where I am
Really looking forward to starting stage 3 in a few days
I must say things have really changed. Over the last couple of weeks things have really become stable. I am now at the point where I can concentrate at work and am relatively at peace with where I am right now.
I am under the belief that stage 2 is part of the normalization process. So i'm hoping stage 3 is where the building begins.
Just looking back at where I was 2 months ago. I literally could not concentrate at work, It got so bad I was put on performance review. I would go into a tail spin of emotions whenever I heard from my ex that would last for days. Now when I hear from her i'm emotional for around 15 minutes before I just let it go.
In the last week I have had comments from people about how much I've changed and how I've lost weight and how much stronger I seem. I don't know if this is due to alpha male or due to the circumstances at the time but I feel its a bit of both. I can now say I'm content being single and not having women for now and its the first time I can ever say that since I was 14.
Now where i'm hoping to head. I would like to become more social and start to build up more of a sense of humor. I would also like to continue improving my body and getting into shape as well as cut down further on the neediness so I can truly come from a place of wanting to be with a women instead of feeling like I need to (This is something I have never had in my life).
So a recap of stage 2
* For me I feel like this has normalized and stabalised me emotionally. I'm not completely there yet but most of the way
* I also feel it has made me less social but at the same time care less about being social and coming more from a place of wanting than needing
* I feel like I have more easily been able to let things go
* A little more in the moment
* Feeling more content even though I am very negative at the moment (Sounds contradictory but I believe contentment and negativity to be separate)
* More able to feel that i'm OK
* More able to just accept where I am
Really looking forward to starting stage 3 in a few days
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
