02-09-2012, 11:45 AM
Thanks NC
Its weird been contemplating a lot during the last few days. How I used to be and how I am now.
I've actually started to see at some points in my life I did have a lot of friends and girls that were interested in me. I've noticed that some of this was due to my social status and leadership position in my old job. Also the fact that I was very picky with girls but I knew this was a lot to do with fear as I knew if I didn't see a women as good enough then I would not fear talking to her and the standards I had set were ridiculous to say the least so no one could meet them.
I'm almost at the point now where I just don't care about being alpha or not. At the same time I feel very socially withdrawn and a little down but relaxed at the same time. Motivation is down but this could be due to my low testosterone and not having had my injections that i'm meant to have.
I really couldn't care whether I talk to people or not at the moment and have not much of a desire to try impress anyone.
I've had quite a few times where I strongly believe I will never have another girl in my life but at the same time i'm ok with that. I've also been questioning a lot whether this program has changed me at all but I just tell myself that its just something I put on at night and it involves zero effort.
Kind of confusing time to say the least.
Its weird been contemplating a lot during the last few days. How I used to be and how I am now.
I've actually started to see at some points in my life I did have a lot of friends and girls that were interested in me. I've noticed that some of this was due to my social status and leadership position in my old job. Also the fact that I was very picky with girls but I knew this was a lot to do with fear as I knew if I didn't see a women as good enough then I would not fear talking to her and the standards I had set were ridiculous to say the least so no one could meet them.
I'm almost at the point now where I just don't care about being alpha or not. At the same time I feel very socially withdrawn and a little down but relaxed at the same time. Motivation is down but this could be due to my low testosterone and not having had my injections that i'm meant to have.
I really couldn't care whether I talk to people or not at the moment and have not much of a desire to try impress anyone.
I've had quite a few times where I strongly believe I will never have another girl in my life but at the same time i'm ok with that. I've also been questioning a lot whether this program has changed me at all but I just tell myself that its just something I put on at night and it involves zero effort.
Kind of confusing time to say the least.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
