DMSI Journal

[Purple Jade]

describe your perfect man?

Physical stuff - tall, slim and an infectious smile
Mental side - intelligent, ambitious, driven, hungry for power, preferably outsmart me.
Sexually - totally into me, crazy about my body. Treat his and my sexual pleasure equally.

A bit high level, but that’s all I can come up with. Never really put a “perfect man” into words.

Hey PJ, if you’re game, have a go at putting this to paper, too?

List 10 to 15 things, as specific as you want to be (i.e. down to freckles or other nitty gritty), that he absolutely must have, and 10 things that you don’t want in a man – like you’re mail ordering a guy custom-made just for yourself. Keep the list handy and review it every day. Imagine you’re already with this guy, perhaps write him a love letter. I’ve tried this myself before, and it’s uncanny how it worked out. Guess you get what you focus on life. Just a suggestion.

Thanks Dr.

I was actually thinking of focusing on healing - as strange as it sounds, I found myself obsessed over the drama guy in my mind as somehow I found he was similar to the younger version of my last long term ex, except more driven and more on alpha side. To some extent, I think we are both afraid of contacting each other or afraid of falling for each other, so I really wanted to clear my fear if that’s true.

Now you just planted other seeds about drama guy...*sigh, you know what, I will take your advice and see how I go - not gonna write specially about drama guy but just some generic points, and see how I go!