DMSI Journal

[kalmah0804]

Don’t really know what happened. Got ditched without any reason for the second date. There was constant communication during the week, and he would even explain and apologised if he was radio silent for longer than a few hours due to work commitments without me asking anything. There were still texts to indicate the date would be carrying on this morning, then he has been radio silent for the past 8 hours which has passed the planned pickup time. oh well, it’s out of his character, but I guess it’s easier just to disappear.

This has happened to me all the time on DMSI. I think it's part of the "Ghosting" other people are experiencing. One minute, insane attraction, the next, it's as if you don't even exist in the other person's eyes. Oh well--the important thing to remain fixed on, especially in the early phases, are personal growth and development from within--results will come only once you've achieved that inner strength and emotional availability that will result in you becoming your most sexually attractive form. Sexuality isn't just about pure physicality, it's a lot to do with emotional connection, your personality, your character, the vibes (or "aura" I guess) you give off. These things will build with time, and there will be many more men in your life eventually, probably who are much more attractive to you both sexually and otherwise.

was she getting hit on?

I couldn't tell you that as she spent the whole day out with her friends, but I know that they way that she was dressed up and had done her hair and makeup and things was far beyond what she normally does for when she goes out. I mean, hell, this may sound fucked up, but if she wasn't my sister, and I was just some ordinary normal guy walking past her in the street on that day, my jaw would have hit the floor. And again, our entire lives, my sister has definitely been the better looking one out of the two of us, but she still looked fairly average compared to most girls she hangs out with. She's pretty, but she's not drop-dead gorgeous.

On that morning after accidentally being exposed to 7 loops of DMSI 3.1-A, she looked scary good, and it literally just shocked me. Imagine if she had listened to DMSI 3.1-A for 3-6 months--or any girl for that matter--that shit is too powerful to even fathom.