Day 28
I have been talking to a girl for the past few weeks. Well ok, I have been talking to many girs but THIS ONE, we'll call her T, I am very interested in emotionally. The other day we started talking on a very emotional level to eachother about how we felt towards eachother. Expressing myself emotionally has always been a MASSIVE struggle for me but these past few days have been amazing. All my guilt, shame, and fear about being emotional with another human is eroding away. In fact, my mind hits a wall: that "...shit" moment where you think you can't do it and are about to get frustrated.... but then Danny Phantom style I just go through the wall and it is absolutely amazing. I absolutely blame MLS
MLS is helping me develop as a person and figure myself out. In this journal entry I believe I am experiencing MLS's cognitive, verbal enhancement qualities as well brain hemisphere balancing.
For the first time since I moved to the west coast (June 12th, it is now Aug 26th) I am just now starting to put together my electric drum set
I say this with a smile because I couldn't always verbalize it but I now realize that the reason I didn;t want to put it together is because that was the last thing I had to unpack, and in effect, completely unpacking meant that I am actually completely on my own. This can be a good thing or a bad thing. I am coming to see it as a wonderful thing. I am a drummer and have been playing for about 10 years. The fact that I had not put the stupid thing together faster was depressing haha but MLS has me excited to want to figure it out. "Oh, this doesn't seem so bad... hm ok let's figure it out!" Furthermore, MLS has me very excited to improve at the drums. I have always played a handful of times per week prior to not setting it up and I have a firm grasp of where my talents lie. What I am eluding to is (oh shit I used eluding, thats a new word for me) is that I will be able to monitor my progress and will be able to convey improvement to you guys.
I am doctoring a lot of my text messages to correct cause and effect and transitional words. "I am going to guitar center to buy a drum key THEN put together my set" becomes "I am going to guitar center to buy a drum key SO THAT I CAN put together my drum set."
I have a feeling I will do some self research and learning about the english language. I know there are a handful of things I can pick up and improve upon.
FOOD. Last night I actually purchased healthy food. Weird, right? I got a handful of $1 steam-able frozen vegetables for easy access and preparation, some pre-made frozen noodle veggie stuff which doesnt sound healthy but its better than what I normally eat, raw bell peppers, avacados, an assortment of deli meat, yogurt, pickles. I forgot to mention that quite some time ago I cut out cereal from my diet and replaced it with oatmeal so I am still doing that and now from MLS I have this hate toward carbs. I'll use a hoagie roll to make subs with but other than that I've cut out a lot of carbs.
JOB. I am still very new to my job and the industry acronym RCG (recent college graduate) has bought me a lot of time to get my shit together and learn my role. Everyone is very helpful by helping me learn what I need to know. I was blindsided by the onboarding process that I actually forgot what it is that my job title WAS. Operations Business Analyst. Ok, cool, what does that even mean? I wondered. By the power of MLS, I am learning what a business analyst IS and DOES. I am researching how they do their job, the scope of the job, how to excel at it, tools used to do the job, etc, and I am developing a Go-Getter attitude. Gap filling, I call it. I see a gap in a business process and I just... do it. Like Nike. I just do it, I fill the gap by researching the gap, the problem, and implement a solution. Its a wonderful feeling to get into my actual job role I have always been an innovator and a problem solver, and essentially thats what a Business Analyst does, so this job is perfect for me. You'll find me occasionally making posts about making things (this forum, peoples attitudes and mindsets, even shannon's process) more efficient. Not to step on anyone's toes, it is simply my way of trying to add value because thats the kind of person I am. Constant improvement across the board
I have been talking to a girl for the past few weeks. Well ok, I have been talking to many girs but THIS ONE, we'll call her T, I am very interested in emotionally. The other day we started talking on a very emotional level to eachother about how we felt towards eachother. Expressing myself emotionally has always been a MASSIVE struggle for me but these past few days have been amazing. All my guilt, shame, and fear about being emotional with another human is eroding away. In fact, my mind hits a wall: that "...shit" moment where you think you can't do it and are about to get frustrated.... but then Danny Phantom style I just go through the wall and it is absolutely amazing. I absolutely blame MLS
MLS is helping me develop as a person and figure myself out. In this journal entry I believe I am experiencing MLS's cognitive, verbal enhancement qualities as well brain hemisphere balancing. For the first time since I moved to the west coast (June 12th, it is now Aug 26th) I am just now starting to put together my electric drum set
I say this with a smile because I couldn't always verbalize it but I now realize that the reason I didn;t want to put it together is because that was the last thing I had to unpack, and in effect, completely unpacking meant that I am actually completely on my own. This can be a good thing or a bad thing. I am coming to see it as a wonderful thing. I am a drummer and have been playing for about 10 years. The fact that I had not put the stupid thing together faster was depressing haha but MLS has me excited to want to figure it out. "Oh, this doesn't seem so bad... hm ok let's figure it out!" Furthermore, MLS has me very excited to improve at the drums. I have always played a handful of times per week prior to not setting it up and I have a firm grasp of where my talents lie. What I am eluding to is (oh shit I used eluding, thats a new word for me) is that I will be able to monitor my progress and will be able to convey improvement to you guys. I am doctoring a lot of my text messages to correct cause and effect and transitional words. "I am going to guitar center to buy a drum key THEN put together my set" becomes "I am going to guitar center to buy a drum key SO THAT I CAN put together my drum set."
I have a feeling I will do some self research and learning about the english language. I know there are a handful of things I can pick up and improve upon.
FOOD. Last night I actually purchased healthy food. Weird, right? I got a handful of $1 steam-able frozen vegetables for easy access and preparation, some pre-made frozen noodle veggie stuff which doesnt sound healthy but its better than what I normally eat, raw bell peppers, avacados, an assortment of deli meat, yogurt, pickles. I forgot to mention that quite some time ago I cut out cereal from my diet and replaced it with oatmeal so I am still doing that and now from MLS I have this hate toward carbs. I'll use a hoagie roll to make subs with but other than that I've cut out a lot of carbs.
JOB. I am still very new to my job and the industry acronym RCG (recent college graduate) has bought me a lot of time to get my shit together and learn my role. Everyone is very helpful by helping me learn what I need to know. I was blindsided by the onboarding process that I actually forgot what it is that my job title WAS. Operations Business Analyst. Ok, cool, what does that even mean? I wondered. By the power of MLS, I am learning what a business analyst IS and DOES. I am researching how they do their job, the scope of the job, how to excel at it, tools used to do the job, etc, and I am developing a Go-Getter attitude. Gap filling, I call it. I see a gap in a business process and I just... do it. Like Nike. I just do it, I fill the gap by researching the gap, the problem, and implement a solution. Its a wonderful feeling to get into my actual job role
I have always been an innovator and a problem solver, and essentially thats what a Business Analyst does, so this job is perfect for me. You'll find me occasionally making posts about making things (this forum, peoples attitudes and mindsets, even shannon's process) more efficient. Not to step on anyone's toes, it is simply my way of trying to add value because thats the kind of person I am. Constant improvement across the board
