Darwin’s Journal

[Darwinn]

I should say that in spite of all this I still some how 'feel' like I'm stupid and not as smart as everyone else. This is one of the fundamental issues that has shaped my life so I expect it's not going to be solved overnight. I embedded trauma over being shamed for standing out intellectually, for being creative or better. I actually got beaten up when I was a kid by a group of bigger older kids, just for being different in the way I looked and thought and having the audacity to not think it was an issue - add to this the fact that my self worth has always been tied to class performance where I could never concentrate. .

Anyway on we go