06-29-2017, 03:07 AM
I....lied.
Well not so much lied, as changed my mind and didn't update. Instead of giving up DMSI altogether I thought I'd give B a shot.
The dirty looks from guys and people picking on me ceased, I've gotten more confident again and people all over are responding to me much more positively. I've had a lot of interactions people who might be deemed 'spiritually advanced' which also seems to be guiding me upon an all round better path in life, and jobs and opportunities for higher pay are cropping up.
Something weighs a little heavily on me though. I'm going for jobs which will require me to be really on point, sharp, and a very quick learner - and I'm going for them with a heavy heart because I still suffer with this dirty little secret of mine that I have learning difficulties. Those around me wouldn't believe me, since I've always done well academically and get paid well for what I do. Still I struggle with focus and presence so much that I've cultivated ways of avoiding situations where i'll be exposed - in these new jobs I will be exposed.
MLS is so important to me it's ridiculous. Really hoping it does the trick because this is the only thing holding me back now.
Well not so much lied, as changed my mind and didn't update. Instead of giving up DMSI altogether I thought I'd give B a shot.
The dirty looks from guys and people picking on me ceased, I've gotten more confident again and people all over are responding to me much more positively. I've had a lot of interactions people who might be deemed 'spiritually advanced' which also seems to be guiding me upon an all round better path in life, and jobs and opportunities for higher pay are cropping up.
Something weighs a little heavily on me though. I'm going for jobs which will require me to be really on point, sharp, and a very quick learner - and I'm going for them with a heavy heart because I still suffer with this dirty little secret of mine that I have learning difficulties. Those around me wouldn't believe me, since I've always done well academically and get paid well for what I do. Still I struggle with focus and presence so much that I've cultivated ways of avoiding situations where i'll be exposed - in these new jobs I will be exposed.
MLS is so important to me it's ridiculous. Really hoping it does the trick because this is the only thing holding me back now.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
