The saga continues: AM 6

[mat422]

Damn, it sounds like you're really similar to me and are ending up getting the same results at the same pace with Stage 7 that I was. I made the mistake of bailing at around 21 days--don't make the same mistake I did! I look back now and feel like I was oh so close to having a major breakthrough had I stuck around for the final 11 days.

I've lost count, by the way--how many days have you been on Stage 7 now?

Yeah, do you know what your MBTI type is? A lot of the guys I relate to on this forum are the same type as me. I'm glad you stopped by though because a couple of days ago I was strongly considering moving to dmsi. I stuck it out and felt like I pushed past something. I'm at 17 days now, so I'm pretty close to your 21. It wouldn't surprise me if it happens again closer to that time. A lot of this resistance can be unpredictable at times.

I'm an INFP-T -- with like an absurdly high turbulent score (I think I'm like 97% turbulent, if that makes any sense to you).

Same here. Don't know about my turbulent score though. It was probably a hell of a lot higher a few years ago. I had a feeling you were INFP, a lot of what you write I could relate to.

Same here, dude. I've been having horrible problems with my life lately, which is why I haven't been posting, but yeah, very eager to see how you end up after a full 32 days on this sub (that's me being hopeful you'll make it through, of course). It was really, really, really rough sailing for me, and I ended up having to quit, but am curious as to see if it gets better for you by the end.

Also, think you'll respond really well to DMSI. I do admit that I feel as though I was becoming far less turbulent, as you have admitted for yourself, but when I started 3.1 it completely rocked my core and broke me down. I'm sure if I had continued it may have built me back up again anew, but I'd suggest from our personality similarities and my own personal experiences that you wait for 3.2, which I believe will not only be much stronger, but will be much better at overcoming resistance, which I think we manifest similarly and think might be too much for you on 3.1 as well.

Oh I'll make it. My life has been enough of a shit show for me I'm willing to go through hell to come out the other side. Whether or not I'll come out the other side with incredible changes, I can't say. But I have to at least try. I've pretty much stopped putting expectations on my run with these subliminals lately because I find it complicates the whole process. When I think to myself "yeah at the end of this everything will be fixed" it takes me away from the present moment and what I have to do now to get there. It really is the journey, not the destination. That was really hard for me to grasp, but I see it now.

I was reading some of your posts and it sounds like you've got big dreams. I do too. But in order to get there we have to really build ourselves up. I mean like complete overhaul of who we think we are. That's tough because it's pretty much abandoning literally everything we've ever known about ourselves. It's like a blind leap of faith, it's scary as fuck to be honest. It feels like descending into a great unknown abyss to me. I can't see anything and I don't know what's lurking in there either. And the thing that really sucks about it is I've found I can't do anything to quell that fear, talk myself out of it, or otherwise convince my subconscious there's nothing to fear. I've wasted a lot of time and energy trying to figure out how and in the end it didn't make a damn bit of difference. I don't know what it is, but maybe people like you and I are special cases and our physiology is more intense than the average person which leads to an over amplification of our feelings.

But I'll say this. In the amount of time I've experimented with these subliminals the best strategy I've found is to up my exposure and take my mind off of it completely. I've started to recognize the signs of breakthroughs. Usually when I feel like I have to take it easy, that means I have to actually do the exact opposite and push more. I cannot trust my mind while running these subliminals because as soon as I engage it too much I enter this mental battlefield where things get so twisted in my head I can't separate the truth from thoughts being a direct result of resistance.

Btw, how do you listen to your subliminals? Headphones or speakers? If you don't use headphones I'd highly recommend it. Speakers never did it for me, I use headphones almost exclusively. Something about having that stereo effect Shannon talks about really just helps me get past the resistance more.