06-18-2017, 09:21 AM
Tempted to say something unoriginal, like "It's journalin' time!" but I'm no Ben Grimm -- and I seem to have said it anyway. Go, me.
Day... something or other. I've lost count. Let's call it "Sunday" and leave it at that. Probably a good time to explain how I've been listening to 3.1. Not sure why, but, ever since 3.0.1, I go into pure input mode (and can-barely-sleep mode) on listening days and start executing/sleeping on non-listening days. Wasn't necessary until 3.x, and I can't explain why that's changed. So I alternate listening (usually one week on/one week off), well within the P3/P4/P5 time range, and bootstrap my way there instead. I'm hoping that the on/off thing will become less necessary after more execution, unless it relates to the newest 5.5 tech more than it does to the sub goals. I've been doing 2 loops, as originally directed for 3.1, but I might consider experimenting a bit, now that Shannon has relaxed that instruction.
So, anyhow, the past few days were timed as an execute week, partly because Friday night was a planned social night. It was also the first social night since starting 3.1-B, and, yeah, B definitely seems different from A. Went to a club. Saw plenty of people that I've known for years. Nothing new there. Then things got weird. The most unsettling ex of my life showed up for the first time in 5+ years, which brought up all sorts of concerns, but, thankfully, a mutual friend acted as a buffer, while a couple others tried to take my mind off of it. And I indulged in their suggestion to drink myself a little calmer. Auric shield or not, it felt like a terrible time to call attention to myself and a potentially good time to derail state shifting. Maybe not the bravest idea, I know, but drinking seemed less avoidant than leaving.
So, that hiding-drunk-in-a-corner plan didn't derail very much. I don't think that B allows hiding quite as much as A does. I'll skip the step-wise suspense-building of I-did-this/someone-else-did-that, but, in spite of my attempts to hide, the two most interesting women that I'd noticed earlier in the night had both (separately, in their own ways) come up to me, introduced themselves, chatted for a bit, and danced with me. And that was all them. The way that I'd been 2 years ago, I'd have probably gone home to avoid the ex and would never have met either of them that night. Seemed like a net-positive result. And like B's gonna be what B wants to be. And not all that gently.
Day... something or other. I've lost count. Let's call it "Sunday" and leave it at that. Probably a good time to explain how I've been listening to 3.1. Not sure why, but, ever since 3.0.1, I go into pure input mode (and can-barely-sleep mode) on listening days and start executing/sleeping on non-listening days. Wasn't necessary until 3.x, and I can't explain why that's changed. So I alternate listening (usually one week on/one week off), well within the P3/P4/P5 time range, and bootstrap my way there instead. I'm hoping that the on/off thing will become less necessary after more execution, unless it relates to the newest 5.5 tech more than it does to the sub goals. I've been doing 2 loops, as originally directed for 3.1, but I might consider experimenting a bit, now that Shannon has relaxed that instruction.
So, anyhow, the past few days were timed as an execute week, partly because Friday night was a planned social night. It was also the first social night since starting 3.1-B, and, yeah, B definitely seems different from A. Went to a club. Saw plenty of people that I've known for years. Nothing new there. Then things got weird. The most unsettling ex of my life showed up for the first time in 5+ years, which brought up all sorts of concerns, but, thankfully, a mutual friend acted as a buffer, while a couple others tried to take my mind off of it. And I indulged in their suggestion to drink myself a little calmer. Auric shield or not, it felt like a terrible time to call attention to myself and a potentially good time to derail state shifting. Maybe not the bravest idea, I know, but drinking seemed less avoidant than leaving.
So, that hiding-drunk-in-a-corner plan didn't derail very much. I don't think that B allows hiding quite as much as A does. I'll skip the step-wise suspense-building of I-did-this/someone-else-did-that, but, in spite of my attempts to hide, the two most interesting women that I'd noticed earlier in the night had both (separately, in their own ways) come up to me, introduced themselves, chatted for a bit, and danced with me. And that was all them. The way that I'd been 2 years ago, I'd have probably gone home to avoid the ex and would never have met either of them that night. Seemed like a net-positive result. And like B's gonna be what B wants to be. And not all that gently.
