So a few interesting things have happened over the last day or so. Last night my brother decided to have a party as I live with him I had no choice but to attended. The crowd was a little young for my liking with a whole foray of 18 year old girls and some 19-20 year old guys.
What I noticed
1. I didn't have much of an interest in the 18 year old girls they seemed a bit immature for me even when by most peoples standards they would have been considered good looking. On a side note I did notice some apprehension in talking to them which is unusual as lately I have been talking to most people and yesterday was feeling very confident. I'm going to put this down to something that happened with a girl around that age which has developed in me getting a fear of girls who are around that age. It wasn't looks like I initially thought it may be because I have been chatting to good looking women around my own age and older.
2. A lot of them seemed to be checking me out but were apprehensive about talking to me. Now this could have been because of my mones IS, mx297, Ammo (For those from androtics) or it could have been the self effects of the sub.
Then today another comment was made by a work college who I talk to regularly. She is a women in her 40's an amazing women to talk to as well. We were having our usual chat and I mentioned how I hadn't had much sleep due to the party my brother threw last night. We got to talking about it and I mentioned there was a large group of 18 year old girls there, She then went on to say how they must have been all over me. Now comments like this I pretty much never get apart from some from my ex gf when we were together. Another interesting thing is I would have usually played this up but instead just said 'They aren't my type' instead of the usual 'They were doing this and that' She had also made a comment yesterday about how much happier I seemed these days.
So something subtle is happening just can't quite pick it out yet.
A couple of other small things.
1. I have been thinking about my ex a lot more lately but without the emotional intensity that used to come of it
2. I still have a neediness for women but from what I have read this is covered in stage 2
What I noticed
1. I didn't have much of an interest in the 18 year old girls they seemed a bit immature for me even when by most peoples standards they would have been considered good looking. On a side note I did notice some apprehension in talking to them which is unusual as lately I have been talking to most people and yesterday was feeling very confident. I'm going to put this down to something that happened with a girl around that age which has developed in me getting a fear of girls who are around that age. It wasn't looks like I initially thought it may be because I have been chatting to good looking women around my own age and older.
2. A lot of them seemed to be checking me out but were apprehensive about talking to me. Now this could have been because of my mones IS, mx297, Ammo (For those from androtics) or it could have been the self effects of the sub.
Then today another comment was made by a work college who I talk to regularly. She is a women in her 40's an amazing women to talk to as well. We were having our usual chat and I mentioned how I hadn't had much sleep due to the party my brother threw last night. We got to talking about it and I mentioned there was a large group of 18 year old girls there, She then went on to say how they must have been all over me. Now comments like this I pretty much never get apart from some from my ex gf when we were together. Another interesting thing is I would have usually played this up but instead just said 'They aren't my type' instead of the usual 'They were doing this and that' She had also made a comment yesterday about how much happier I seemed these days.
So something subtle is happening just can't quite pick it out yet.
A couple of other small things.
1. I have been thinking about my ex a lot more lately but without the emotional intensity that used to come of it
2. I still have a neediness for women but from what I have read this is covered in stage 2
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
