Hello Greenduck!
I would say, years ago, before subs, I used to be that way in an extreme fashion when in the presence of females I was attracted to. I'd often freeze or not be able to communicate properly, things like that. Keep in mind, this is a VERY long time ago, far before ever coming here. For awhile now, like 5 years or so maybe more, I'm far more present when with girls I am attracted to. Even if results haven't caught up with that yet. I still feel some anxiety at times in the same situation, which may always happen as I find the girl attractive so I feel naturally there may be some sense of "something on the line" when in the situation. So, in short, I do still get anxiety and "get in my own head", but nowhere near as bad. Maybe that's a sign more work needs to be done there, or that it's as good as it will get and there will always be a bit left of that when around attractive people. Maybe this is complicated due to the level of drought with females I've had, creating a craving or need or fear of not getting something, scarcity. To be honest, I don't know.
Thank you for stating that about me. Without arrogance, I'd agree. I'd also agree that for possibly a variety of reasons, I get in my own way. Be that fear, shame, old things haunting me still, who knows. But I know that things exist in me still, that are impeding progress. I hope in time they can be resolved.
I am in the best shape I've been in for years. I started intermittent fasting to lose a ton of weight I didn't realise I had. Apparently, I'm predisposed to generating lots of visceral fat, which is a blessing and a curse. Blessing, because I looked a lot better in clothes than I should have given my height and weight. Curse, because I had no idea just HOW far out of control my weight was other than when I did a random scale test one day. Then, that morning, horrified by the number and sickened with myself I let it get so bad, I took immediate action. 10 months later, 67 pounds lost, and I'm told, many years taken off me, and I'd have to agree!
I am cautious about anything that could be considered "mind programming", to stay within Shannon's guidelines of one method at a time. I understand the logic behind it, but for now I'd like to be more cautious.
Thank you for posting, Greenduck. I hope E2 is serving you well! I liked it, and I've had my brother on it for over 7 months now, and will do so until E3.
I would say, years ago, before subs, I used to be that way in an extreme fashion when in the presence of females I was attracted to. I'd often freeze or not be able to communicate properly, things like that. Keep in mind, this is a VERY long time ago, far before ever coming here. For awhile now, like 5 years or so maybe more, I'm far more present when with girls I am attracted to. Even if results haven't caught up with that yet. I still feel some anxiety at times in the same situation, which may always happen as I find the girl attractive so I feel naturally there may be some sense of "something on the line" when in the situation. So, in short, I do still get anxiety and "get in my own head", but nowhere near as bad. Maybe that's a sign more work needs to be done there, or that it's as good as it will get and there will always be a bit left of that when around attractive people. Maybe this is complicated due to the level of drought with females I've had, creating a craving or need or fear of not getting something, scarcity. To be honest, I don't know.
Thank you for stating that about me. Without arrogance, I'd agree. I'd also agree that for possibly a variety of reasons, I get in my own way. Be that fear, shame, old things haunting me still, who knows. But I know that things exist in me still, that are impeding progress. I hope in time they can be resolved.
I am in the best shape I've been in for years. I started intermittent fasting to lose a ton of weight I didn't realise I had. Apparently, I'm predisposed to generating lots of visceral fat, which is a blessing and a curse. Blessing, because I looked a lot better in clothes than I should have given my height and weight. Curse, because I had no idea just HOW far out of control my weight was other than when I did a random scale test one day. Then, that morning, horrified by the number and sickened with myself I let it get so bad, I took immediate action. 10 months later, 67 pounds lost, and I'm told, many years taken off me, and I'd have to agree!
I am cautious about anything that could be considered "mind programming", to stay within Shannon's guidelines of one method at a time. I understand the logic behind it, but for now I'd like to be more cautious.
Thank you for posting, Greenduck. I hope E2 is serving you well! I liked it, and I've had my brother on it for over 7 months now, and will do so until E3.
