05-11-2017, 03:08 PM
Update. Yesterday was my work day and it looks like it was also my LM day. After starting working I realized I had a huge gap in my plan. As it wasn't my fault it means I get paid for that time. Free paid time. Cool. So I went to McDonald and ordered some food. While waiting the girl gave me a butt display but I wasn't sure it was one. So I ate my food and decided I want an extra burger. I ordered it and while waiting I got another butt display from the same girl (she took something from the bottom shelf both times). But this time I stand and different place and still the butt was turned in my direction.
Later I had to park my car and I hoped to get a parking slot in a shadow place. After arriving I noticed there were NO parking slots left at all. So I drove to the end at the parking area and turned around. As I did I noticed few cars leaving. But at the same time new car arrived. Fuck. But I also noticed two girls talking at one of the cars. So I waited....and waited...but they were still talking. So I thought, ok, fuck it, lets look for another parking slot. The same moment another car left. Guess what? It was one of the rare parking slots in a shadow place. Jackpot. Oh, I forgot, while waiting a guy approached me and asked me if I want his parking ticked as he is leaving and doesn't need it anymore and it is paid until tomorrow. Cool. Of, course I want.
After parking I had some time left so I stayed in the car. While waiting another car arrived in front of me. A girl came out of the car and looks at me. Immediately after looking she got her upper body into the car and acting like fixing or taking something out of the car while sticking her butt out in my direction - and it took like forever. Of course she didn't take anything out of the car but gave me a nice view. Great.
Later before going to bed (and after my loops) I noticed I feel like I had taken some muscle relaxants. Was absolutely relaxed. After waking up today still feel completely relaxed. But before waking up I had a really weird dream about Shannon. The dream was about Shannon making videos of himself with different haircuts (!). In one of them he had long, curly hair like Slash from Guns n'Roses. And he didn't even looked like himself but more like a Latino, lol. Don't know what this dream was really about but I thought it was weird enough to mention here.
Today the focus seemed to be more internal again. However, in the train there was a girl looking at me several times again and again. And I noticed the aura firing up. Later there was a girl I had soooo strong urge to grab her ass that I really had to control myself to not do it. I really never had such a strong urge to grab an ass of a unknown girl. Some will say now it was the autopilot so why not? Well, taking the local, feminine-friendly laws it was really risky, especially that she was with a (female) friend and there were a bunch of people around. Not good.
In the last few days I had also some girls smiling at me while I was looking in their eyes. With some I was comfortably, with some I wasn't and with some I was simply not used to get that kind of attention and simply looked away. So I guess it's still some way to go.
Another thing I am somehow disappointed of a girl of my study course. We wanted to learn together but it looks like she is only interested in meeting me if she can profit from (and in this case she can't because I am that bad as she is). Not that she didn't help me when I asked something but it was usually asking her questions over text. In other notes she was always busy. And I didn't even try to game her or something. They always seem to be interested if they can profit from, no matter if it is sex, entertainment or money. It really sucks. Anyway, so far for today.
Later I had to park my car and I hoped to get a parking slot in a shadow place. After arriving I noticed there were NO parking slots left at all. So I drove to the end at the parking area and turned around. As I did I noticed few cars leaving. But at the same time new car arrived. Fuck. But I also noticed two girls talking at one of the cars. So I waited....and waited...but they were still talking. So I thought, ok, fuck it, lets look for another parking slot. The same moment another car left. Guess what? It was one of the rare parking slots in a shadow place. Jackpot. Oh, I forgot, while waiting a guy approached me and asked me if I want his parking ticked as he is leaving and doesn't need it anymore and it is paid until tomorrow. Cool. Of, course I want.
After parking I had some time left so I stayed in the car. While waiting another car arrived in front of me. A girl came out of the car and looks at me. Immediately after looking she got her upper body into the car and acting like fixing or taking something out of the car while sticking her butt out in my direction - and it took like forever. Of course she didn't take anything out of the car but gave me a nice view. Great.
Later before going to bed (and after my loops) I noticed I feel like I had taken some muscle relaxants. Was absolutely relaxed. After waking up today still feel completely relaxed. But before waking up I had a really weird dream about Shannon. The dream was about Shannon making videos of himself with different haircuts (!). In one of them he had long, curly hair like Slash from Guns n'Roses. And he didn't even looked like himself but more like a Latino, lol. Don't know what this dream was really about but I thought it was weird enough to mention here.
Today the focus seemed to be more internal again. However, in the train there was a girl looking at me several times again and again. And I noticed the aura firing up. Later there was a girl I had soooo strong urge to grab her ass that I really had to control myself to not do it. I really never had such a strong urge to grab an ass of a unknown girl. Some will say now it was the autopilot so why not? Well, taking the local, feminine-friendly laws it was really risky, especially that she was with a (female) friend and there were a bunch of people around. Not good.
In the last few days I had also some girls smiling at me while I was looking in their eyes. With some I was comfortably, with some I wasn't and with some I was simply not used to get that kind of attention and simply looked away. So I guess it's still some way to go.
Another thing I am somehow disappointed of a girl of my study course. We wanted to learn together but it looks like she is only interested in meeting me if she can profit from (and in this case she can't because I am that bad as she is). Not that she didn't help me when I asked something but it was usually asking her questions over text. In other notes she was always busy. And I didn't even try to game her or something. They always seem to be interested if they can profit from, no matter if it is sex, entertainment or money. It really sucks. Anyway, so far for today.
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
