Day 37 (Day 7 side B),
Spent my day at work extremely stressed and unhappy. Unsure as to the cause; I feel like I'm going crazy or something. It might be DMSI, but it could just be cabin fever, and the fact that I have very little to do at work (meaning that I could very well be let go sooner than later).
I'm having these thoughts of running AM6 or BASE Stage 7 until DMSI 3.2 comes out. That way, I could re-develop useful emotions for escaping my situation. Or, I tough out DMSI 3.1 until I pass the resistance.
I've watched the start of 'Charisma University'; I'll watch it, but probably won't have room to apply it, as my job doesn't involve me dealing with people.
EDIT: I went to Jiu Jitsu, and I felt much better. After pushing myself with several rolls, I finally snapped out of my funk and became very present to the moment. I realize that all of my problems were not just abstract concepts but situations that involve real consequences. I also clued in to the idea that I'm becoming older (25), and I need to move the hell out of my parent's house, even if it will cost me money.
Spent my day at work extremely stressed and unhappy. Unsure as to the cause; I feel like I'm going crazy or something. It might be DMSI, but it could just be cabin fever, and the fact that I have very little to do at work (meaning that I could very well be let go sooner than later).
I'm having these thoughts of running AM6 or BASE Stage 7 until DMSI 3.2 comes out. That way, I could re-develop useful emotions for escaping my situation. Or, I tough out DMSI 3.1 until I pass the resistance.
I've watched the start of 'Charisma University'; I'll watch it, but probably won't have room to apply it, as my job doesn't involve me dealing with people.
EDIT: I went to Jiu Jitsu, and I felt much better. After pushing myself with several rolls, I finally snapped out of my funk and became very present to the moment. I realize that all of my problems were not just abstract concepts but situations that involve real consequences. I also clued in to the idea that I'm becoming older (25), and I need to move the hell out of my parent's house, even if it will cost me money.
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