01-01-2012, 03:13 PM
I'm nearing to finishing Sex Magnet now. How things have changed.
Last night I was getting of with a girl for new year, who kept explicitly telling me, "not to drink too much because sober sex is the best", and "your coming back to mine tonight" etc. We lost each other and it never happened, but the point is that I'm kind of glad. Still, she's been messaging me all day on Facebook trying to set up a date. I might agree. Trouble is, I already have two "dates" booked, for Friday the 6th and Saturday the 7th with two different girls. I put dates in speech marks simply to highlight that there is nothing date like about them - they are intended to be explicitly sexual encounters. No beating around the bush; it's guaranteed. Guaranteed if I want it that is. I'm thinking I'll go along on Friday, and then make my decision about Saturday on Saturday.
God, how negative and ungrateful I sound
My point is - as Shannon has, himself, been alluding to in some of his recent posts - sex isn't the goal. I'm beginning to think that how much people want sex isn't so much determined by their hormones or what-have-you, but more psychological; how much of a neurosis there is in the Phallus stage to borrow a term from Psychoanalysis. Similarly, for example, overeating - in my opinion - isn't a genetic trait but a neurosis of the oral stage. What relevance that has I don't know; all I know is there is an abundance of sex available for me, but in these past few weeks, it just doesn't mean anything to me any more. New years resolutions then and all that - to find myself a sexual partner who means something to me (i.e. someone I'd be proud to call my Girlfriend).
Last night I was getting of with a girl for new year, who kept explicitly telling me, "not to drink too much because sober sex is the best", and "your coming back to mine tonight" etc. We lost each other and it never happened, but the point is that I'm kind of glad. Still, she's been messaging me all day on Facebook trying to set up a date. I might agree. Trouble is, I already have two "dates" booked, for Friday the 6th and Saturday the 7th with two different girls. I put dates in speech marks simply to highlight that there is nothing date like about them - they are intended to be explicitly sexual encounters. No beating around the bush; it's guaranteed. Guaranteed if I want it that is. I'm thinking I'll go along on Friday, and then make my decision about Saturday on Saturday.
God, how negative and ungrateful I sound
My point is - as Shannon has, himself, been alluding to in some of his recent posts - sex isn't the goal. I'm beginning to think that how much people want sex isn't so much determined by their hormones or what-have-you, but more psychological; how much of a neurosis there is in the Phallus stage to borrow a term from Psychoanalysis. Similarly, for example, overeating - in my opinion - isn't a genetic trait but a neurosis of the oral stage. What relevance that has I don't know; all I know is there is an abundance of sex available for me, but in these past few weeks, it just doesn't mean anything to me any more. New years resolutions then and all that - to find myself a sexual partner who means something to me (i.e. someone I'd be proud to call my Girlfriend).
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
