04-20-2017, 07:14 PM
Well I've also constantly said that I was merely looking for one clear sign it's working for me. That would prove it's the real deal and the past isn't applicable anymore. That doesn't mean SEX in and of itself. Just something with a girl I know wouldn't have happened before DMSI to show it is actually working for me. Asking me for a date, a kiss, whatever, as long as it's clear and wouldn't have happened before DMSI. That's IT, nothing unreasonable.
Sex is too far away to really seriously think about at this point, just a single clear indicator of something that wouldn't have happened otherwise. That's all I'm looking for.
I know it's easy to write me off as "raising the bar" and claim I'm doing "conscious resistance" which makes zero sense because I bought the program even while listening to another program to support this project from day one. And have faithfully listened for like an entire year now. If it's any resistance it's SUBconscious, not conscious itself clearly based off all that...but I've NEVER deviated from this sentiment of wanting one sign in reality it works for me with girls. It's been the same thing I'm looking for the whole time. I'm looking for one clear sign it works for me, that's it, that doesn't have to be sex. I've never raised the bar one time.
We'll see in time if that can happen.
However, I completely agree the genders speak in vastly different languages, that much is crystal clear. It's also clear this will take a lot longer than a year of listening to see tangible results. I'm accepting that now.
I'll finish out the week of B and then go back to A and probably cut out the updates, take down the journal as it doesn't seem to be relevant anymore. If I dig in for a long term run of A, there will likely be a whole lot of dead spots in progress so to speak, so journaling won't be very useful to development.
Sex is too far away to really seriously think about at this point, just a single clear indicator of something that wouldn't have happened otherwise. That's all I'm looking for.
I know it's easy to write me off as "raising the bar" and claim I'm doing "conscious resistance" which makes zero sense because I bought the program even while listening to another program to support this project from day one. And have faithfully listened for like an entire year now. If it's any resistance it's SUBconscious, not conscious itself clearly based off all that...but I've NEVER deviated from this sentiment of wanting one sign in reality it works for me with girls. It's been the same thing I'm looking for the whole time. I'm looking for one clear sign it works for me, that's it, that doesn't have to be sex. I've never raised the bar one time.
We'll see in time if that can happen.
However, I completely agree the genders speak in vastly different languages, that much is crystal clear. It's also clear this will take a lot longer than a year of listening to see tangible results. I'm accepting that now.
I'll finish out the week of B and then go back to A and probably cut out the updates, take down the journal as it doesn't seem to be relevant anymore. If I dig in for a long term run of A, there will likely be a whole lot of dead spots in progress so to speak, so journaling won't be very useful to development.
