04-10-2017, 06:22 PM
Day 38
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O45NhRtOMcI
It's actually day 39 for me, but I missed doing my loops on Saturday, so I'm keeping my days on this journal active to the number of days I have done my loops.
I've finished 18 days on B, and I have two more days before I go back to version A. I'm actually really looking forward to doing another run of A. I don't know why, but I think after 20 days of B, the effects of A will be more pronounced for me. At least that's how I've been feeling these past few days.
I went out of town this past weekend, headed down to DC with K. It was a nice five hour drive, and the weather was beautiful. DC is like my home away from home. About a decade ago I used to keep an apartment in DC, because I was always traveling between there and NYC. It was right by Adams Morgan.
It's funny because since I moved out of that place, I never went back. I haven't been to Adams Morgan in 10 years. These days when I go to DC, I always end up staying around Chinatown or close to the Mall.
This past trip I stayed by the Mall. Caught some of the Cherry Blossoms, went to some of the museums, just walked really. Even though I was there with K, I wasn't really there with her. Emotionally, I was in my own head, getting caught up with the town.
I met a friend of mine later that night, and left K back at the hotel.
It was good catching up with my friend. We walked around DC late into the night and talked about where we are in our lives right now. His girlfriend of many years had recently moved to Australia for a project. That was a struggle for him. I knew when he told me that, that was the end of their relationship. I think he knew it too. But I didn't say anything. I didn't feel the need to state the obvious.
I got back to my hotel around 1 that night and K was already asleep. I fell asleep next to her. On Sunday I took K to the spy museum; they had a 50 years of bond villains exhibit. They had the DB 5 from Goldfinger on display also. I love that car...
After the museum we went to Zaytinya for lunch and then hopped back in the car and drove home.
At some point during the weekend I also took a photo of the Cherry Blossoms and sent it to Y.
By the time I came home last night, I realized internally that something had changed, and something more was going to change. The whole thing about women didn't matter anymore.
I left DC feeling like maybe it's time I go back to it. I feel like I need a change of pace from where I am in my life right now. And I feel like that change is...
I also don't think I want to be with any one woman for the long term. It's sort of a contrast from what I said a few weeks ago, but, it's true. I never needed a woman to make me feel content. I'm used to being single. I think that's why I like the casual nature of my relationships with the women I have in my life now.
I'm seeing Y again tomorrow. Just for Ice Cream. I'm trying to do more simple things. Day-to-day things. I was thinking last night about why I started this journey with DMSI. When I first got the sub, it was because it was an experimental technology and I wanted to see how that would work for me.
That was back in late August. It's now April. I've been using a version of DMSI for roughly 8 months, minus the time between versions. So much of who I am has changed in the past few months.
So much has changed just in the past few weeks.
So much more is going to change in the coming weeks. 3.1 will probably be the version of DMSI that I have done the longest. Meaning that there are more changes that will occur before I move on from this version and onto 3.2.
I sometimes wonder who I'll be by the time I finish the 90 day run of DMSI Final.
It's not even that getting laid is important anymore. I can do that anywhere. It's not hard. These days DMSI is driving me to another stage of my evolution, or driving me back to some place else.
Chaos mentioned how much he missed California. I realized how much I missed DC.
I feel like so much more is going to change soon, and I'm waiting for it.
Sometimes I feel like I'm being reborn. All the excess is being stripped away and all that's left are the essentials. Just the core of me.
Everything else is just fading scenery...
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O45NhRtOMcI
It's actually day 39 for me, but I missed doing my loops on Saturday, so I'm keeping my days on this journal active to the number of days I have done my loops.
I've finished 18 days on B, and I have two more days before I go back to version A. I'm actually really looking forward to doing another run of A. I don't know why, but I think after 20 days of B, the effects of A will be more pronounced for me. At least that's how I've been feeling these past few days.
I went out of town this past weekend, headed down to DC with K. It was a nice five hour drive, and the weather was beautiful. DC is like my home away from home. About a decade ago I used to keep an apartment in DC, because I was always traveling between there and NYC. It was right by Adams Morgan.
It's funny because since I moved out of that place, I never went back. I haven't been to Adams Morgan in 10 years. These days when I go to DC, I always end up staying around Chinatown or close to the Mall.
This past trip I stayed by the Mall. Caught some of the Cherry Blossoms, went to some of the museums, just walked really. Even though I was there with K, I wasn't really there with her. Emotionally, I was in my own head, getting caught up with the town.
I met a friend of mine later that night, and left K back at the hotel.
It was good catching up with my friend. We walked around DC late into the night and talked about where we are in our lives right now. His girlfriend of many years had recently moved to Australia for a project. That was a struggle for him. I knew when he told me that, that was the end of their relationship. I think he knew it too. But I didn't say anything. I didn't feel the need to state the obvious.
I got back to my hotel around 1 that night and K was already asleep. I fell asleep next to her. On Sunday I took K to the spy museum; they had a 50 years of bond villains exhibit. They had the DB 5 from Goldfinger on display also. I love that car...
After the museum we went to Zaytinya for lunch and then hopped back in the car and drove home.
At some point during the weekend I also took a photo of the Cherry Blossoms and sent it to Y.
By the time I came home last night, I realized internally that something had changed, and something more was going to change. The whole thing about women didn't matter anymore.
I left DC feeling like maybe it's time I go back to it. I feel like I need a change of pace from where I am in my life right now. And I feel like that change is...
I also don't think I want to be with any one woman for the long term. It's sort of a contrast from what I said a few weeks ago, but, it's true. I never needed a woman to make me feel content. I'm used to being single. I think that's why I like the casual nature of my relationships with the women I have in my life now.
I'm seeing Y again tomorrow. Just for Ice Cream. I'm trying to do more simple things. Day-to-day things. I was thinking last night about why I started this journey with DMSI. When I first got the sub, it was because it was an experimental technology and I wanted to see how that would work for me.
That was back in late August. It's now April. I've been using a version of DMSI for roughly 8 months, minus the time between versions. So much of who I am has changed in the past few months.
So much has changed just in the past few weeks.
So much more is going to change in the coming weeks. 3.1 will probably be the version of DMSI that I have done the longest. Meaning that there are more changes that will occur before I move on from this version and onto 3.2.
I sometimes wonder who I'll be by the time I finish the 90 day run of DMSI Final.
It's not even that getting laid is important anymore. I can do that anywhere. It's not hard. These days DMSI is driving me to another stage of my evolution, or driving me back to some place else.
Chaos mentioned how much he missed California. I realized how much I missed DC.
I feel like so much more is going to change soon, and I'm waiting for it.
Sometimes I feel like I'm being reborn. All the excess is being stripped away and all that's left are the essentials. Just the core of me.
Everything else is just fading scenery...
