03-23-2017, 06:58 PM
Day 21
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQtnjuEsoFA
Last 7 days have been interesting with regards to how I perceive time. Even though it's only been 21 days on DMSI, it feels like I have lived through years of life.
I saw Y on Monday and I'm seeing her again tomorrow night for dinner. Things there have been good; we have a comfortable banter between us and I guess I just found my middle ground with her maybe. I don't quite know how to explain it. It's in a good place.
Work stuff has been driving me a little nuts lately. I'm pretty driven and I have a really low tolerance for bullshit, so when it starts to creep into my work life, which it does every now and again, it tends to push me over certain edges. I am trying to find my happy balance there. It's hard.
I also ran into another girl I know today, I'll call her C. I've been blowing her off for a few weeks now, due to just having too much on my plate. I promised her I would definitely have dinner with her next week. I had to promise, because, otherwise I probably would bail on her. I tend to keep commitments if I say I promise. I don't know why I work that way, but I do. I also have another woman that I had been blowing off, I'll call her L, and I promised her I would have dinner with her soon also.
The problem hasn't really been attracting women as of late, it's been more of I have so much work on my plate, that I don't necessarily have time to see a lot of women. When I have had time, I've been spending it with K or Y.
All these initials... pretty soon I'll be spelling out the alphabet in my journal posts.
So, one thing of interest, after 20 days of going through version A, I decided to be the asshole that tries out B.
Truth be told, when I hit play for the 2 loops this morning, I had made up my mind that I was going to update my journal today, and I was honestly expecting this entry to go very differently. I was expecting to say that I had a massively overwhelming feeling from running B and that I wanted to go hide in a corner after my loops were completed, or that I had to bail out half way through.
But that wasn't the case. I wasn't tired, wasn't overwhelmed, instead, I was actually sniping a woman on the train today. First time I feel like the sniper was working for me. She was with someone, and I just felt this intense desire to pin her against the doors of the train and rail her. It was animalistic; the feeling was just primal. And I could tell she was responding to me. Her body language told me. I could feel the sexual energy from her.
While I'm not part of the Century club like 4Kings, I'm probably less than a dime away from joining it. In my years of being sexually active, a few of the nights that stand out in my mind are the ones where I met a stranger in a club or bar, and I would lock eyes with her, and there would be this raw intensity that would flow out from her body. And I would just know. Those nights resulted in some of the most sexually intense encounters I had with women.
The thing is, I haven't felt that intensity in almost a decade. But this morning, it came back to me. I felt it again. I felt the raw energy of sex emanating from that woman's body. I swear I could smell the pungent scent of her soaking wet, from where I was standing.
It was amazing...
I'm going to stay on B for a few more days, maybe a week or two at most and see how I continue to evolve, before switching back to A for another 20 or so, day run.
I'll end my journal entry on a thought that I've had regarding 3.1 compared to 3.0.1.
I love cars. Always have. I love the raw power and rush when taking a car around a twisty track. I was never one for a 10 second straight quarter mile.
That being said, when I was in my late teens, early 20's, I loved the Viper. I loved the look of the Viper. I used to think it was the best looking car. And then one day I drove the Viper, and my love affair drained faster than the gas tank.
The Viper was raw, unfiltered, uncaring, earth shattering, drive you into a wall and melt your balls off power. It was fantastically looney.
I liken 3.0.1 to a Viper. Raw Power that takes no prisoners.
Now that I'm in my 40's, I prefer something much more refined. I think my favorite car these days is an Audi R8 V10. It has a lot of Raw Power, lots of fun to take around a track, and doing an AWD Drift in that car makes me giggle like my 12 year old school boy days when I had the Lamborghini Countache posters decorated on my walls. It's fun, it has plenty of oomph, but it has several other things as well, like a B&O sound system, power windows, ABS. All the things the Viper didn't have.
I can drive an R8 for hours and never feel like I can taste my spine grinding between my teeth as my intestines wrap around my brain like Japanese tentacle porn...
And that's what 3.1 is for me. It's my Audi R8.
I know a lot of people are hitting extreme resistance with 3.1. I don't know why, but I haven't. Maybe I've just been lucky so far, and maybe side B is me tempting fate. I don't know.
But, when I do find out, this community will find out with me.
For everyone that's struggling to see the results with 3.1, or DMSI in general, I'll leave you all with one of my favorite quotes.
"When you find yourself going through hell, keep going..."
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQtnjuEsoFA
Last 7 days have been interesting with regards to how I perceive time. Even though it's only been 21 days on DMSI, it feels like I have lived through years of life.
I saw Y on Monday and I'm seeing her again tomorrow night for dinner. Things there have been good; we have a comfortable banter between us and I guess I just found my middle ground with her maybe. I don't quite know how to explain it. It's in a good place.
Work stuff has been driving me a little nuts lately. I'm pretty driven and I have a really low tolerance for bullshit, so when it starts to creep into my work life, which it does every now and again, it tends to push me over certain edges. I am trying to find my happy balance there. It's hard.
I also ran into another girl I know today, I'll call her C. I've been blowing her off for a few weeks now, due to just having too much on my plate. I promised her I would definitely have dinner with her next week. I had to promise, because, otherwise I probably would bail on her. I tend to keep commitments if I say I promise. I don't know why I work that way, but I do. I also have another woman that I had been blowing off, I'll call her L, and I promised her I would have dinner with her soon also.
The problem hasn't really been attracting women as of late, it's been more of I have so much work on my plate, that I don't necessarily have time to see a lot of women. When I have had time, I've been spending it with K or Y.
All these initials... pretty soon I'll be spelling out the alphabet in my journal posts.
So, one thing of interest, after 20 days of going through version A, I decided to be the asshole that tries out B.
Truth be told, when I hit play for the 2 loops this morning, I had made up my mind that I was going to update my journal today, and I was honestly expecting this entry to go very differently. I was expecting to say that I had a massively overwhelming feeling from running B and that I wanted to go hide in a corner after my loops were completed, or that I had to bail out half way through.
But that wasn't the case. I wasn't tired, wasn't overwhelmed, instead, I was actually sniping a woman on the train today. First time I feel like the sniper was working for me. She was with someone, and I just felt this intense desire to pin her against the doors of the train and rail her. It was animalistic; the feeling was just primal. And I could tell she was responding to me. Her body language told me. I could feel the sexual energy from her.
While I'm not part of the Century club like 4Kings, I'm probably less than a dime away from joining it. In my years of being sexually active, a few of the nights that stand out in my mind are the ones where I met a stranger in a club or bar, and I would lock eyes with her, and there would be this raw intensity that would flow out from her body. And I would just know. Those nights resulted in some of the most sexually intense encounters I had with women.
The thing is, I haven't felt that intensity in almost a decade. But this morning, it came back to me. I felt it again. I felt the raw energy of sex emanating from that woman's body. I swear I could smell the pungent scent of her soaking wet, from where I was standing.
It was amazing...
I'm going to stay on B for a few more days, maybe a week or two at most and see how I continue to evolve, before switching back to A for another 20 or so, day run.
I'll end my journal entry on a thought that I've had regarding 3.1 compared to 3.0.1.
I love cars. Always have. I love the raw power and rush when taking a car around a twisty track. I was never one for a 10 second straight quarter mile.
That being said, when I was in my late teens, early 20's, I loved the Viper. I loved the look of the Viper. I used to think it was the best looking car. And then one day I drove the Viper, and my love affair drained faster than the gas tank.
The Viper was raw, unfiltered, uncaring, earth shattering, drive you into a wall and melt your balls off power. It was fantastically looney.
I liken 3.0.1 to a Viper. Raw Power that takes no prisoners.
Now that I'm in my 40's, I prefer something much more refined. I think my favorite car these days is an Audi R8 V10. It has a lot of Raw Power, lots of fun to take around a track, and doing an AWD Drift in that car makes me giggle like my 12 year old school boy days when I had the Lamborghini Countache posters decorated on my walls. It's fun, it has plenty of oomph, but it has several other things as well, like a B&O sound system, power windows, ABS. All the things the Viper didn't have.
I can drive an R8 for hours and never feel like I can taste my spine grinding between my teeth as my intestines wrap around my brain like Japanese tentacle porn...
And that's what 3.1 is for me. It's my Audi R8.
I know a lot of people are hitting extreme resistance with 3.1. I don't know why, but I haven't. Maybe I've just been lucky so far, and maybe side B is me tempting fate. I don't know.
But, when I do find out, this community will find out with me.
For everyone that's struggling to see the results with 3.1, or DMSI in general, I'll leave you all with one of my favorite quotes.
"When you find yourself going through hell, keep going..."
