03-15-2017, 10:54 AM
(03-15-2017, 10:51 AM)mat422 Wrote:(03-15-2017, 08:14 AM)kalmah0804 Wrote: Hmmm... It seems that you're still experiencing a crap ton of resistance/difficulty on AM6. Would you say that you feel that your prolonged run on E2 helped even a little bit (as far as experiencing AM6 goes), or would you say that you feel the difficulties of AM6 are still present regardless of the several months of E2 that came before it?
It's hard to say. I think despite running E2 for that long, the demands of AM6 have been just too far out of my comfort zone and I've been responding in fear. E2 had a way of guiding me to improvement in my life without triggering fear in me and I resisted a lot less. So all in all I'd say, running E2 didn't really smooth out Am6 that much for me. However, E2 did make a lot of profound changes in me and helped me turn my life around a lot.
A lot of my difficulties is down to my personality. I've always, even as a small child, been hesitant to make changes. It's been one of my lifelong lessons that I have to overcome. And over the years people pushed me, which did the opposite and caused me to retreat further. At times this is what occurs with AM6. It's not that I have problems with being told what to do, it's the fact that if I'm given more than I think I can handle I retreat very fast instead of fighting it head on like other guys.
I'm actually the exact same way. Thanks for the helpful feedback.
Like snowfall, you cry a silent storm
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Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . .
-- Agalloch, The Mantle