02-28-2017, 05:01 AM
Woke up today having had a deep sleep with dreams of weird ailments. For example my teeth have had a weird tingling sensation and last night I had a dream where I looked in the mirror and they were revolting - like weird mutant black teeth and multiple teeth coming out of my gums in one place.
My focus is way off, and I must say I feel like I'm having a bit of an LTU withdrawal and missing having a deep well of self validation/automatic negativity cancellation to draw on when things don't go so great. facing up to issues around focus and energy again, though energy is much more stable and strong, mentally I'm still lazy and avoid discomfort. I'm engaging in self destructive behaviours which are impeding me and my progress. I can sense myself resisting change - there is another world and person on the other side of integrating these new beliefs around healing and it feels like I'm unwilling on some level to just let go of this old person.
My focus is way off, and I must say I feel like I'm having a bit of an LTU withdrawal and missing having a deep well of self validation/automatic negativity cancellation to draw on when things don't go so great. facing up to issues around focus and energy again, though energy is much more stable and strong, mentally I'm still lazy and avoid discomfort. I'm engaging in self destructive behaviours which are impeding me and my progress. I can sense myself resisting change - there is another world and person on the other side of integrating these new beliefs around healing and it feels like I'm unwilling on some level to just let go of this old person.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
