02-27-2017, 02:08 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-27-2017, 07:47 PM by destinedtochange.)
DISCLAIMER: Ben, incase you are wondering with the whole ip thing, I am just signed in from my job location. Hope that is okay.
I dont remember any dreams last night...
So today at work, felt the issues of frustration again desiring to communicate with some people at work. That feeling I thought that was gone for a few days seemed to find its way back to me. I am having problems speaking up even just to chit chat with folks. But then again I never freely chatted with anyone, just didnt care to want to join in. When I feel this desire to wish I could join into a conversation freely and can't, it is like being trapped in a bubble without air where you want to hyperventilate for air; that is the exact feeling I got.
I felt irrational fears as i always do. However I also feel this feeling of no fear at the same time, cant explain it. I am irrationally fearing but I am correct, I am not afraid of confrontation? It's like i could just do it but somewhat I hesitate too....if that makes any sense.
I believe I am on 52 days as of today using EPHRA...looking forward to the 64 day mark then finally the 96 day mark...dont know if I will play it for 6 months may be I might upgrade after 96 days to 2.0 dont know..
I dont remember any dreams last night...
So today at work, felt the issues of frustration again desiring to communicate with some people at work. That feeling I thought that was gone for a few days seemed to find its way back to me. I am having problems speaking up even just to chit chat with folks. But then again I never freely chatted with anyone, just didnt care to want to join in. When I feel this desire to wish I could join into a conversation freely and can't, it is like being trapped in a bubble without air where you want to hyperventilate for air; that is the exact feeling I got.
I felt irrational fears as i always do. However I also feel this feeling of no fear at the same time, cant explain it. I am irrationally fearing but I am correct, I am not afraid of confrontation? It's like i could just do it but somewhat I hesitate too....if that makes any sense.
I believe I am on 52 days as of today using EPHRA...looking forward to the 64 day mark then finally the 96 day mark...dont know if I will play it for 6 months may be I might upgrade after 96 days to 2.0 dont know..
