02-26-2017, 08:49 AM
(This post was last modified: 02-27-2017, 07:53 PM by destinedtochange.)
So I finally tried on the sleep phones......I tried to sleep with them using masked subliminals trickling streams but I couldnt sleep for 2 hours.........took that bad boy off and put on US tones......still couldnt sleep I think........it has more to do with that sleepphone being on my face that keeps me distracted from sleeping.....Im afraid thats what kept me awake until I took it off and finally went to bed.....
Had dreams last night but dont know if it was along with the subs or not....dreams were interesting...one guy was driving a motorcycle lost balance and fell off of it while oncoming traffic was right behind him........I spoke with him which felt hours later, and he was jolly explaining what went down and how he survived...
Then another dream, saw these guys ahead of me in a tunnel which seemed like it was their job to organize the tracks before starting the day in a group and then disorganize it when it was closing down.....i was in my car ahead of them and the ones by the entrance saw me and decided to close the door was they were disassembling it.
Then in another dream was about a hindi film I watched "hero" from 1983 and the bad guy that played the role in it was sitting lavishly...this big fat naked dude ahead of me came up to him to request a child and he was disgusted with his nakedness but approved of his entrance and as that is going down I am realizing to myself this same villian will soon meet his fate of death as in the movie....
(side note the computer accidentally backbuttoned itself and I feared I lost everything I wrote and would have to rewrite it) hitting the forward button I am glad to see everything is in tact).
Anyway, the naked guy that came to get a child tried to do this nasty things to a fat lil boy and yeah thats where it stopped
Then finally there was a dream where I was driving but as I am driving I am feeling confused as the roads become confusing and "uneven". I saw these interstate numbers and I guess I was going somewhere but not sure where.
Lastly I thought of the people I knew in my past that I thought to myself would be cool people to be in touch with and be friends with and wanted to write a list of those people.
Thats it with the dreams. I felt something but I am not going to say it was EPHRA too early to conclude it......I felt sort of fearless I guess where I could feel like doing anything and not caring for the results..........this morning I had to drop my daddy off to work when heading home i thought id try to stop by mcdonalds and pick up a breakfast sandwich; someone in front of me was taking hours to move it felt, I honked at them then thinking if I should get out of the car to ask whats takin so long......didnt do that part; then I asked the girl at the drive thru window what took her so long to move, and made a comment 'man im hungry' to her when she passed over my sandwich. These 3 things I dont know Id normally do.
That night, I went again to mickey d's and wanted to get some iced coffee was craving it I guess, this dude at the drive thru started talking in a way that I was perceived as retarded i donno....but he was like 'are u okay man' but not in a nice way but in a way that he was poking fun....I answered cool as in 'no i am not ok i cant find my debit card' then I forgot what happened after that, but then I was like 'hey how about you pay it for me'.......and that caught him off guard like he didnt know how to respond....
That night upon entering back home without my iced coffee, i confronted my niece in front of her parents' presence like she opened the bathroom door and i asked her if she did it....she obviously did and I kind of put her in her place yes shes 4 but i think she should have known better and i told her directly in a way where both parents can listen to how I was telling her.....like i am not gonna be afraid to let my baby niece know what is wrong and right.....felt so good to doing it....like i wasnt afraid of saying it
Had dreams last night but dont know if it was along with the subs or not....dreams were interesting...one guy was driving a motorcycle lost balance and fell off of it while oncoming traffic was right behind him........I spoke with him which felt hours later, and he was jolly explaining what went down and how he survived...
Then another dream, saw these guys ahead of me in a tunnel which seemed like it was their job to organize the tracks before starting the day in a group and then disorganize it when it was closing down.....i was in my car ahead of them and the ones by the entrance saw me and decided to close the door was they were disassembling it.
Then in another dream was about a hindi film I watched "hero" from 1983 and the bad guy that played the role in it was sitting lavishly...this big fat naked dude ahead of me came up to him to request a child and he was disgusted with his nakedness but approved of his entrance and as that is going down I am realizing to myself this same villian will soon meet his fate of death as in the movie....
(side note the computer accidentally backbuttoned itself and I feared I lost everything I wrote and would have to rewrite it) hitting the forward button I am glad to see everything is in tact).
Anyway, the naked guy that came to get a child tried to do this nasty things to a fat lil boy and yeah thats where it stopped
Then finally there was a dream where I was driving but as I am driving I am feeling confused as the roads become confusing and "uneven". I saw these interstate numbers and I guess I was going somewhere but not sure where.
Lastly I thought of the people I knew in my past that I thought to myself would be cool people to be in touch with and be friends with and wanted to write a list of those people.
Thats it with the dreams. I felt something but I am not going to say it was EPHRA too early to conclude it......I felt sort of fearless I guess where I could feel like doing anything and not caring for the results..........this morning I had to drop my daddy off to work when heading home i thought id try to stop by mcdonalds and pick up a breakfast sandwich; someone in front of me was taking hours to move it felt, I honked at them then thinking if I should get out of the car to ask whats takin so long......didnt do that part; then I asked the girl at the drive thru window what took her so long to move, and made a comment 'man im hungry' to her when she passed over my sandwich. These 3 things I dont know Id normally do.
That night, I went again to mickey d's and wanted to get some iced coffee was craving it I guess, this dude at the drive thru started talking in a way that I was perceived as retarded i donno....but he was like 'are u okay man' but not in a nice way but in a way that he was poking fun....I answered cool as in 'no i am not ok i cant find my debit card' then I forgot what happened after that, but then I was like 'hey how about you pay it for me'.......and that caught him off guard like he didnt know how to respond....
That night upon entering back home without my iced coffee, i confronted my niece in front of her parents' presence like she opened the bathroom door and i asked her if she did it....she obviously did and I kind of put her in her place yes shes 4 but i think she should have known better and i told her directly in a way where both parents can listen to how I was telling her.....like i am not gonna be afraid to let my baby niece know what is wrong and right.....felt so good to doing it....like i wasnt afraid of saying it
