02-18-2017, 02:47 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-19-2017, 08:39 AM by destinedtochange.)
Today I could not listen to EPHRA majority of the time because my fiancee was calling me interrupting my listening mode, and the person that she is, she will call so many times before she gives up calling. Anyway I had to shut off the phone and zoned off to sleep. woke up about 5 hours later and then turned on the sub to listen to it but didnt fall back asleep cuz i was gettin the munchies...
So i did have a awkward dream but that also wasnt with using the sub as i slept before I woke up all of a sudden.
It also dawned on me today that I think since using EPHRA I had this desire to "remodel my room" such as new carpeting, custom bed spreads, more cushiony pillows, starting to buy clothing, etc.
I was never interested in this kind of stuff while before ephra I think....before then I didnt even care about redecorating my room or getting clothing with a new wardrobe....
Another weird thing is my brother in law just came up to me randomly and confronted me about something of why I changed the door knob, I felt 'fight or flight' response even if i had my reasons to do it, but it was just so random when he asked but he seemed sort of pissed about it too in his voice I would imagine.
With that said, I am hesitating but wishing to confront him back I am not fearless heck I dont even run OF yet but I think just starting out with a text will explain it to him.
Nothing else really exciting happened but what I did actually do is for the first time. I actually paid for a meal for my parents that
I never ever did in my life, its usually them that pay for me......so I ended up buying something even if it was just $5
I also have been trying to expand my social circle to find friends locally to bond with and form friendships
Lastly, I called the runaway hotline because I am planning to start fresh from everyone and everything in my life and start from scratch..........not official yet but just thinking about it
So i did have a awkward dream but that also wasnt with using the sub as i slept before I woke up all of a sudden.
It also dawned on me today that I think since using EPHRA I had this desire to "remodel my room" such as new carpeting, custom bed spreads, more cushiony pillows, starting to buy clothing, etc.
I was never interested in this kind of stuff while before ephra I think....before then I didnt even care about redecorating my room or getting clothing with a new wardrobe....
Another weird thing is my brother in law just came up to me randomly and confronted me about something of why I changed the door knob, I felt 'fight or flight' response even if i had my reasons to do it, but it was just so random when he asked but he seemed sort of pissed about it too in his voice I would imagine.
With that said, I am hesitating but wishing to confront him back I am not fearless heck I dont even run OF yet but I think just starting out with a text will explain it to him.
Nothing else really exciting happened but what I did actually do is for the first time. I actually paid for a meal for my parents that
I never ever did in my life, its usually them that pay for me......so I ended up buying something even if it was just $5
I also have been trying to expand my social circle to find friends locally to bond with and form friendships
Lastly, I called the runaway hotline because I am planning to start fresh from everyone and everything in my life and start from scratch..........not official yet but just thinking about it
