02-16-2017, 08:49 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-16-2017, 08:51 PM by destinedtochange.)
Today wasn't bad at all. But I understand we can't have the best days every single day of our lives. Usually when I am thinking of saying something funny I have to decide in my head whether I should go for it or not.....understandably, the normal natural ones just do it. I am very quiet and reserved at work but I don't know if I am slowly breaking away from that as I sometimes doubt whether I should say something cuz I will sound stupid and won't get a chuckle or no one will notice me saying it and that will make me feel bad or embarrassed to saying it and finally getting a chuckle from folks...which is exactly what happened today. "I made a funny" and got some laughs from my manager and coworker.
In addition I still feel like I can't talk to this one girl at work that I want to have friendship with.....no I dont want her as a girlfriend but just as a friend.....shes got kids anyways and a boyfriend and has tats and one of my things is that I dont like women with tats no matter how hot they r.
It has been revealed to me that my manager is gonna have a celebration outing to eat at a restaurant tomorrow......I really dont want to go so I am thinking if I should make up an excuse to not to go....I just dont feel comfortable going out to eat with groups of people.......I wish there was a way out of it...I still have irrational fears of expressing myself and fear of saying what I feel.
Today, I guess I do experience a 1% awareness as it feels to say things and just simply talk without worrying what others think? EPHRA, is this your doing?
In addition I still feel like I can't talk to this one girl at work that I want to have friendship with.....no I dont want her as a girlfriend but just as a friend.....shes got kids anyways and a boyfriend and has tats and one of my things is that I dont like women with tats no matter how hot they r.
It has been revealed to me that my manager is gonna have a celebration outing to eat at a restaurant tomorrow......I really dont want to go so I am thinking if I should make up an excuse to not to go....I just dont feel comfortable going out to eat with groups of people.......I wish there was a way out of it...I still have irrational fears of expressing myself and fear of saying what I feel.
Today, I guess I do experience a 1% awareness as it feels to say things and just simply talk without worrying what others think? EPHRA, is this your doing?
