02-15-2017, 06:54 AM
So today I had more crazy dreams last night. One of them was like I was back in elementary school and the circumstance was bizarre, in the dream it felt as if I murdered a student.....and then I was trying to hide that fact away from the teachers......and then it felt like I got away with it.....I don't know why I did it or who I did it too but back in my childhood years I had the worst school experience with bully teachers (yes you read that right) and student bullies.....don't know if the sub is trying to do something here.....
I did have another dream but I forgot that one....
I did learn that using the US tones and at a high volume level does some effects to me.....everyone has different experiences and what works for them but I think this one works best for me; if my stereo goes up to 60 max my volume levels I listen to is between 40 and 60.....usually 40 to 45 anything more than that does get too intense...as far as what my hearing can handle
Today, I made an excuse not to go to work.....lied to my manager that i had car trouble....only as an excuse to avoid going to a celebration that I don't even know would happen today because I dont want to involve my self in the celebration so I lied to avoid it. It is definitely social anxiety or irrational thoughts that plagues my mind.
I did have another dream but I forgot that one....
I did learn that using the US tones and at a high volume level does some effects to me.....everyone has different experiences and what works for them but I think this one works best for me; if my stereo goes up to 60 max my volume levels I listen to is between 40 and 60.....usually 40 to 45 anything more than that does get too intense...as far as what my hearing can handle
Today, I made an excuse not to go to work.....lied to my manager that i had car trouble....only as an excuse to avoid going to a celebration that I don't even know would happen today because I dont want to involve my self in the celebration so I lied to avoid it. It is definitely social anxiety or irrational thoughts that plagues my mind.
