02-12-2017, 05:13 AM
Thanks man very much appreciate it.
I actually thought I wouldn't have much to share going forward since the insights I was getting were pretty repetitive. But something just hit me pretty square in the face.
I've been having a lot of dreams about death and situations where I'm being shamed in my dreams which I guess is down to dealing with shame and the fear of death. Someone recommended a book about death to me and so I started learning about it and realised I was deeply terrified, I have an unconscious belief that I'm not going to die ever and do everything I can to avoid the fact of death.
Thoughts are just occurring to me as I engage with this now - first I think this is the core fear that underlies all my fears, and the only way to overcome it is to practice surrendering to this fear and to accept it. What's more in everything I do, to acknowledge that resistance comes from this fear, and rather than trying to achieve something physical in the world, my aim is to use the activity of ggoing for things and living to expose and untie all of the unconscious knots which have been tied up by this fear and gravitate towards a life which is spontaneous and in flow.
All other fears, insecurities, goals and dreams, all seem to pale and are petty in the face of the fear of death and realisation that we're mortal.
I actually thought I wouldn't have much to share going forward since the insights I was getting were pretty repetitive. But something just hit me pretty square in the face.
I've been having a lot of dreams about death and situations where I'm being shamed in my dreams which I guess is down to dealing with shame and the fear of death. Someone recommended a book about death to me and so I started learning about it and realised I was deeply terrified, I have an unconscious belief that I'm not going to die ever and do everything I can to avoid the fact of death.
Thoughts are just occurring to me as I engage with this now - first I think this is the core fear that underlies all my fears, and the only way to overcome it is to practice surrendering to this fear and to accept it. What's more in everything I do, to acknowledge that resistance comes from this fear, and rather than trying to achieve something physical in the world, my aim is to use the activity of ggoing for things and living to expose and untie all of the unconscious knots which have been tied up by this fear and gravitate towards a life which is spontaneous and in flow.
All other fears, insecurities, goals and dreams, all seem to pale and are petty in the face of the fear of death and realisation that we're mortal.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
