02-05-2017, 08:24 PM
OK so despite not feeling up to socializing, I did it anyway. I went to the AA club in town, where there was a super bowl party. I texted a 42 yr old woman friend and asked if she was going to be there. She said yes. When I get there, she was in the middle of a conversation with two of her girlfriends... when she sees me, she immediately grabs me and hugs me, and tells the 2 other women she was talking to how cute I am.... 
There was plenty of attraction with her. We talked for a while, one on one, and caught up with each other. I told her I got a car, and she said "you should move in with me!", hoping I would replace the room mate who is moving out soon.
Me: OK I'll move into your room and sleep in your bed! !
Her: what?! NO! !!
Me: hahahaha yeah we haven't gotten there in our relationship just yet.
Her: I know, right? Not yet!
It was light hearted and fun, but at the same time there was a bit of sexual tension there. One of her guy friends ended up coming to the party and I let them have a go at each other, and they sat right behind me in chairs. I sat on the couch to watch the game. This 52 year old lady came with her husband and plopped down and sat next to me. She may be damn near twice my age but she's still hot. Anyway, we end up talking a little bit and introducing ourselves as far as formalities go. We've seen each other around a lot but never formally met. But sparks were flying and she was giving mad IOI's. There were 4 of us on the couch, in this order: me, 52yrold, husband, other lady". We were squished, yes, but her body language displayed attentiveness and attraction towards me. So did our conversations. We had deep ass conversation while watching the game. We ended up looking at each other and talking more often than watching the game on the tv.
Every now and again, the 42 yr old would reach over from behind and hug me, and tell her guy friend how cute I am. I was genuinely confused as to whether she thinks I'm cute like a teddy bear? Or cute like attractive.
52 yr Olds husband was there the whole time, and he didn't really seem to be bothered by what she was doing. If he said anything to her later on, she could probably EASILY use the excuse "he's half my age, how can there be ANYTHING going on between us?!"
My friends generally tend to be much older than I am, anyway, due to the nature of being sober at a much younger age than the average person in recovery. But damn, dimsee. I feel like frosted when he was running the earlier versions, where he was having those grannys. Lol.
Regardless, I don't feel hopeless anymore. But... my heart sank when I read Shannon post about everything about our reality having to shift in order to achieve the goals of the program. I have a general idea of what that is going to look like. It includes my living situation, and the friends I have. Possibly the job I have as well.
So people places and things are gonna shift. And if all that happen at around the same time, it's going to be heavy, since so many decisions will need to be made, in such a short time period.
Well..... all I can say is bring it on, dimsee. Make me cry some more. I'm ready to have my life turned upside down, in a good way
There was plenty of attraction with her. We talked for a while, one on one, and caught up with each other. I told her I got a car, and she said "you should move in with me!", hoping I would replace the room mate who is moving out soon.
Me: OK I'll move into your room and sleep in your bed! !
Her: what?! NO! !!
Me: hahahaha yeah we haven't gotten there in our relationship just yet.
Her: I know, right? Not yet!
It was light hearted and fun, but at the same time there was a bit of sexual tension there. One of her guy friends ended up coming to the party and I let them have a go at each other, and they sat right behind me in chairs. I sat on the couch to watch the game. This 52 year old lady came with her husband and plopped down and sat next to me. She may be damn near twice my age but she's still hot. Anyway, we end up talking a little bit and introducing ourselves as far as formalities go. We've seen each other around a lot but never formally met. But sparks were flying and she was giving mad IOI's. There were 4 of us on the couch, in this order: me, 52yrold, husband, other lady". We were squished, yes, but her body language displayed attentiveness and attraction towards me. So did our conversations. We had deep ass conversation while watching the game. We ended up looking at each other and talking more often than watching the game on the tv.
Every now and again, the 42 yr old would reach over from behind and hug me, and tell her guy friend how cute I am.
I was genuinely confused as to whether she thinks I'm cute like a teddy bear? Or cute like attractive. 52 yr Olds husband was there the whole time, and he didn't really seem to be bothered by what she was doing. If he said anything to her later on, she could probably EASILY use the excuse "he's half my age, how can there be ANYTHING going on between us?!"
My friends generally tend to be much older than I am, anyway, due to the nature of being sober at a much younger age than the average person in recovery. But damn, dimsee. I feel like frosted when he was running the earlier versions, where he was having those grannys. Lol.
Regardless, I don't feel hopeless anymore. But... my heart sank when I read Shannon post about everything about our reality having to shift in order to achieve the goals of the program. I have a general idea of what that is going to look like. It includes my living situation, and the friends I have. Possibly the job I have as well.
So people places and things are gonna shift. And if all that happen at around the same time, it's going to be heavy, since so many decisions will need to be made, in such a short time period.
Well..... all I can say is bring it on, dimsee. Make me cry some more. I'm ready to have my life turned upside down, in a good way
