02-02-2017, 08:18 PM
Starting to place my needs over others again and it's hard.
Hung out with C again at the church and it's been 2-3 weeks since I saw her and a week after she decided that it was the best for her relationship to stay platonic with me. It didn't jive with me but I was pretty stoic about it. Her platonic was that we could chill, hangout, hugs, just not more intimate stuff like kissing and fuckin.
Despite that though out the night we were messing around with each other and it was fun and playful yet still had that intimate vibe. We do our thing that if one of us leaves the room then we wait for the other outside for some brief intimate time. We saw each other and she said I was up to no good. We stayed within her predefined boundaries but I felt this huge emotional tension throughout my body. I I'm starting to believe that those are the important moments where I can condition myself to do something different.
Too bad I took so damn long and I was interrupted by a chruch member.
After that moment, the dynamic changed and she began to initiate with the playfulness. She would start attacking me and tickling me.
When we got out of the church, I was honest with her and I told her about my mini decisive moment. When we got to her train station, we hugged each other but it is different because she pulled and squeezed me hard for a long hug. We looked at each other and said if I was gonna break the boundary. I did and I said I was a selfish bastard.
Hung out with C again at the church and it's been 2-3 weeks since I saw her and a week after she decided that it was the best for her relationship to stay platonic with me. It didn't jive with me but I was pretty stoic about it. Her platonic was that we could chill, hangout, hugs, just not more intimate stuff like kissing and fuckin.
Despite that though out the night we were messing around with each other and it was fun and playful yet still had that intimate vibe. We do our thing that if one of us leaves the room then we wait for the other outside for some brief intimate time. We saw each other and she said I was up to no good. We stayed within her predefined boundaries but I felt this huge emotional tension throughout my body. I I'm starting to believe that those are the important moments where I can condition myself to do something different.
Too bad I took so damn long and I was interrupted by a chruch member.
After that moment, the dynamic changed and she began to initiate with the playfulness. She would start attacking me and tickling me.
When we got out of the church, I was honest with her and I told her about my mini decisive moment. When we got to her train station, we hugged each other but it is different because she pulled and squeezed me hard for a long hug. We looked at each other and said if I was gonna break the boundary. I did and I said I was a selfish bastard.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
