Day 9
I'd like to say I had no major emotional changes today, but I'm editing my original words now. I did have some.
I felt (just about 30 minutes) of resistance. The kind that says "he's an a-hole! I'm hating life!" I've not felt much in the last 3-4 days, and my mind went to "listen to the subs more". I had them off last night due to continuous listening for the prior 24 hours.
I read Shannon mentioning how our resistance will pop up, scream and rant, sabotage us if possible.......until the new teaching overpowers the old teaching. So, I'm listening to silent subs again now. He even said there's a point in our minds when the resistance will fight, fight, fight......then finally, just submit and learn. I'd like to find that thread again for my own awareness.
I'm really wanting and desiring a no-self-sabotage message. E2 has this--and maybe resistance is still screaming or pouting now--since I'm facing this "it's not so bad over THERE!!" in my head. The illusion is it is easier. I've read some posts, and often E2 can be rougher at times. I'm going to sleep on it and see what changes tomorrow.
I'd like to say I had no major emotional changes today, but I'm editing my original words now. I did have some.
I felt (just about 30 minutes) of resistance. The kind that says "he's an a-hole! I'm hating life!" I've not felt much in the last 3-4 days, and my mind went to "listen to the subs more". I had them off last night due to continuous listening for the prior 24 hours.
I read Shannon mentioning how our resistance will pop up, scream and rant, sabotage us if possible.......until the new teaching overpowers the old teaching. So, I'm listening to silent subs again now. He even said there's a point in our minds when the resistance will fight, fight, fight......then finally, just submit and learn. I'd like to find that thread again for my own awareness.
I'm really wanting and desiring a no-self-sabotage message. E2 has this--and maybe resistance is still screaming or pouting now--since I'm facing this "it's not so bad over THERE!!" in my head. The illusion is it is easier. I've read some posts, and often E2 can be rougher at times. I'm going to sleep on it and see what changes tomorrow.
I want to be FREE!
