Day 43
My friend blew up at me because I overreacted. That entire shit storm happened and drove me to look towards myself through an intense bout of breaking down and crying. I realized my entire life almost has been dictated by the need for validation, escapism, as well as the lack of discipline. So after DMSI v3.2+ or final is released, then I'll run AM6. By that time, I hope the clearing modules can work on whatever it can.
That left me drained as all hell and left me depressed. 3 loops of v3.0.1A stabilized my mood for the duration of the loops.
Day 44
Spent the day working toward my hobby of street photography. I noticed that I was able to get into a really good flow state. I felt really good, confident, and incredibly present while I taking pictures. In the state, I become more reactive as things unfold in front of me. My body language changed and it had this exaggerated swagger to it. 80% of my shots were ass but it didn't matter at the moment.
I am also much bolder this time around. I would take more chances to grab the shot. Even as my subjects looked at me and my camera, I didn't care and I took the picture and walked off. I got the urge to ask some people for a picture which is unlike me at all. When I'm in street photography mode, I snap away and have minimal contact with my subject. I rarely ask but today I did.
This is why I enjoy photography and it brings me satisfaction and joy. Fuck anyone who is going to downplay it.
My friend blew up at me because I overreacted. That entire shit storm happened and drove me to look towards myself through an intense bout of breaking down and crying. I realized my entire life almost has been dictated by the need for validation, escapism, as well as the lack of discipline. So after DMSI v3.2+ or final is released, then I'll run AM6. By that time, I hope the clearing modules can work on whatever it can.
That left me drained as all hell and left me depressed. 3 loops of v3.0.1A stabilized my mood for the duration of the loops.
Day 44
Spent the day working toward my hobby of street photography. I noticed that I was able to get into a really good flow state. I felt really good, confident, and incredibly present while I taking pictures. In the state, I become more reactive as things unfold in front of me. My body language changed and it had this exaggerated swagger to it. 80% of my shots were ass but it didn't matter at the moment.
I am also much bolder this time around. I would take more chances to grab the shot. Even as my subjects looked at me and my camera, I didn't care and I took the picture and walked off. I got the urge to ask some people for a picture which is unlike me at all. When I'm in street photography mode, I snap away and have minimal contact with my subject. I rarely ask but today I did.
This is why I enjoy photography and it brings me satisfaction and joy. Fuck anyone who is going to downplay it.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
