Is this progress?
My sister, someone who I really, really don't like, texted me this morning saying she had made some chicken soup for me and invited me over. At 6AM, I felt ok ignoring her.
Explanation: my sister is the last of 4 children, she's 38, and she's a control FREAK. Absolute FREAK. Doesn't listen in conversations, but has a solution/a fix for anything I admit to. I regularly avoid her since she fights me when I disagree with her, which is at every encounter with her.
It's after 6:30PM now, she texted me asking if I got her text, and I don't want to do the "should I be honest?" with her over every probing question she gives since "she knows how to fix ME".
Bulls***!!! I can't resolve her s***. It's emotionally confusing and frustrating since......she never heard me the first time (she truly just doesn't hear me)
I felt kind of guilty realizing this, then read the OGFS script, which pacified me. I'm not up for BS gymnastics (jump HERE, do THAT, say THIS). No way. I'm not into this.
I need to admit to myself too: I often bury this emotion, this kind of truth, for I have no answers for her. She chooses her chaos daily. It simply just p***** me off. Her alpha-ness is what shuts everyone up. I think she has a d***, seeing her bossyness.
Edit: I read my words that I really, really didn't like her.......and guilt and feelings of responsibility for her surfaced. F***! I hate being controlled by her!! (maybe the script is....WORKING.......coooooooolllll!!!!)
My sister, someone who I really, really don't like, texted me this morning saying she had made some chicken soup for me and invited me over. At 6AM, I felt ok ignoring her.
Explanation: my sister is the last of 4 children, she's 38, and she's a control FREAK. Absolute FREAK. Doesn't listen in conversations, but has a solution/a fix for anything I admit to. I regularly avoid her since she fights me when I disagree with her, which is at every encounter with her.
It's after 6:30PM now, she texted me asking if I got her text, and I don't want to do the "should I be honest?" with her over every probing question she gives since "she knows how to fix ME".
Bulls***!!! I can't resolve her s***. It's emotionally confusing and frustrating since......she never heard me the first time (she truly just doesn't hear me)
I felt kind of guilty realizing this, then read the OGFS script, which pacified me. I'm not up for BS gymnastics (jump HERE, do THAT, say THIS). No way. I'm not into this.
I need to admit to myself too: I often bury this emotion, this kind of truth, for I have no answers for her. She chooses her chaos daily. It simply just p***** me off. Her alpha-ness is what shuts everyone up. I think she has a d***, seeing her bossyness.
Edit: I read my words that I really, really didn't like her.......and guilt and feelings of responsibility for her surfaced. F***! I hate being controlled by her!! (maybe the script is....WORKING.......coooooooolllll!!!!)
I want to be FREE!
