01-10-2017, 01:57 PM
ok, I'm here. I found this site this morning while searching for shame subliminals. I've been making my own and using others scripts, and the only shame subliminals I found focused heavily on one's actions (since most think shame means "I did something bad". I have regrets in my life, but shame is suffocating. Shame's message is "I am bad".
I grew up in an alcoholic home, I've never been a drinker myself, but hiding from people doesn't need alcohol. My shame had me emulating my mom, a chronic hider and loner. I'm similar, and I often look "out there" to find happiness. My present focus has been wealth acquisition. But money doesn't buy peace. The shame I've lived with has eliminated so many opportunities in my life thus far, and I bought OFSG today. I felt fear before buying.........but reading this thread allowed me to see others with similar self doubts, negative self talk, and destructive choice making. And to think "I did this to make me feel BETTER" is a hope I'll hold onto.
It's day 1 for me. I'm a believer in self hypnosis and subliminals, and I make my own.......but Shannon wisely didn't publish his scripts (or I'd have used them). My resistance is evident, even in my writing. My soul cries out "LOVE ME!!!!!" and this strains EVERY single relationship I am in, whether personal or work related. I hide it well sometimes (I know I can impress you with a good front), and....... And. And. Just like that. Motivation evaporates as soon as I lie since I'm hating myself by abandoning the real me. In other words, I hurt myself almost every single day. I medicate by hiding and/or drinking LOTS of coffee. Loving myself is....new and (scary??).
I'm here mainly since I was let in on a truth I'd not known. Last Friday I was in an Adult Children of Alcoholics meeting, and the reading was on the Solution. We read, then others shared. I listened carefully, trying to follow up on someone's share. I didn't share since I was not doing the solution. I was still in the problem, rehearsing my problems, seeking pity. And the reading made this clear.
After the meeting, I talked with a member. I said repeatedly "I'm scared to open up my mouth". That caught his attention. He'd heard another man say the exact same thing. He asked me if I could recognize the emotion. All I felt was fear. He pointed directly to shame.
It's scary unloading this here, but after staying in the problem nearly 20 years in recovery rooms, I'm open to see a change. I read through all of Bliss's experience, grateful he was so articulate in his description of his feelings. I can relate to resistance, anger, hiding......well, all of it.
My self doubt says "you won't return"........ and I remember Shannon put a piece in the recordings challenging us (me) to face my fears. I'll return.
Thanks. I don't want to be alone in this.
I grew up in an alcoholic home, I've never been a drinker myself, but hiding from people doesn't need alcohol. My shame had me emulating my mom, a chronic hider and loner. I'm similar, and I often look "out there" to find happiness. My present focus has been wealth acquisition. But money doesn't buy peace. The shame I've lived with has eliminated so many opportunities in my life thus far, and I bought OFSG today. I felt fear before buying.........but reading this thread allowed me to see others with similar self doubts, negative self talk, and destructive choice making. And to think "I did this to make me feel BETTER" is a hope I'll hold onto.
It's day 1 for me. I'm a believer in self hypnosis and subliminals, and I make my own.......but Shannon wisely didn't publish his scripts (or I'd have used them). My resistance is evident, even in my writing. My soul cries out "LOVE ME!!!!!" and this strains EVERY single relationship I am in, whether personal or work related. I hide it well sometimes (I know I can impress you with a good front), and....... And. And. Just like that. Motivation evaporates as soon as I lie since I'm hating myself by abandoning the real me. In other words, I hurt myself almost every single day. I medicate by hiding and/or drinking LOTS of coffee. Loving myself is....new and (scary??).
I'm here mainly since I was let in on a truth I'd not known. Last Friday I was in an Adult Children of Alcoholics meeting, and the reading was on the Solution. We read, then others shared. I listened carefully, trying to follow up on someone's share. I didn't share since I was not doing the solution. I was still in the problem, rehearsing my problems, seeking pity. And the reading made this clear.
After the meeting, I talked with a member. I said repeatedly "I'm scared to open up my mouth". That caught his attention. He'd heard another man say the exact same thing. He asked me if I could recognize the emotion. All I felt was fear. He pointed directly to shame.
It's scary unloading this here, but after staying in the problem nearly 20 years in recovery rooms, I'm open to see a change. I read through all of Bliss's experience, grateful he was so articulate in his description of his feelings. I can relate to resistance, anger, hiding......well, all of it.
My self doubt says "you won't return"........ and I remember Shannon put a piece in the recordings challenging us (me) to face my fears. I'll return.
Thanks. I don't want to be alone in this.
I want to be FREE!
