Edit: this is a sobered up recount of what happened.
Now that I am not sweating vodka, rum and whiskey. I remembered something C, the friend I had and experience with, explained to me how it eventually led to last nights interaction.
It started with three weeks ago when I was on my first week of DMSI V3.0.1 A. She noticed the vibe(Aura?) around me changed when I did something unusual with her. During one of her piano sessions, I sat next to her on the small chair as she was playing(she was vague). The next week, after two weeks of Version A and day 1 of B, we went to a jazz club and my actions, from NS before alcohol, confirmed her suspicions that I was attracted. She said there was a part of her that was attracted to me as well and another part of her that was trying to play it off. Guess which side of her won last night
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It was funny to me because the make out started when I was drunkenly trying to help her in the bathroom after I got some alcohol in her eye. We went into the bathroom, and i began to caress her. When we started making out, I felt fear bubbling up in me, but it was bypassed by the alcohol. When the resistance subsided it felt like the most surreal experience because I thought to myself "Wow THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING." and "Is this me that is in this situation?" When I asked her to take off her top, and I was playing with her breasts, then that was the point I embraced, what felt like, a new me, a guy that actually can experience intimacy with women and isn't the low confidence guy I always thought I was.
After what seemed to be 20 minutes of making out in the bathroom. My friends gave us space and time to essentially f***. But guess who drank too much and couldn't get it up? Lol Did it matter at the time? No, and I don't feel shame nor insecurity from it to this day. Instead, I took the initiative and decided to please her by eating her out instead, and she gave me bonus points for the initiative.
Afterward when the party is dying down, we ended up sleeping in the same bed. I had my arms out, and she came close and cuddled with me as we slept. Thus a happy ending an incredibly fun and crazy night. When I woke up, I was scared to touch her again because I thought it was all a dream. She responded in the same way as last night, and it eased that fear.
Later today, I met up with my best friend and I was recounting last night with C and he mentioned how far I came and how much I changed. Earlier this year, I was so hung up on an ex that didn't even give me the same level of intimacy that C gave me. Now I'm experiencing a new level of intimacy that I never had before, with a woman and it helped me come less needy about it as well.
Now that I am not sweating vodka, rum and whiskey. I remembered something C, the friend I had and experience with, explained to me how it eventually led to last nights interaction.
It started with three weeks ago when I was on my first week of DMSI V3.0.1 A. She noticed the vibe(Aura?) around me changed when I did something unusual with her. During one of her piano sessions, I sat next to her on the small chair as she was playing(she was vague). The next week, after two weeks of Version A and day 1 of B, we went to a jazz club and my actions, from NS before alcohol, confirmed her suspicions that I was attracted. She said there was a part of her that was attracted to me as well and another part of her that was trying to play it off. Guess which side of her won last night
.It was funny to me because the make out started when I was drunkenly trying to help her in the bathroom after I got some alcohol in her eye. We went into the bathroom, and i began to caress her. When we started making out, I felt fear bubbling up in me, but it was bypassed by the alcohol. When the resistance subsided it felt like the most surreal experience because I thought to myself "Wow THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING." and "Is this me that is in this situation?" When I asked her to take off her top, and I was playing with her breasts, then that was the point I embraced, what felt like, a new me, a guy that actually can experience intimacy with women and isn't the low confidence guy I always thought I was.
After what seemed to be 20 minutes of making out in the bathroom. My friends gave us space and time to essentially f***. But guess who drank too much and couldn't get it up? Lol Did it matter at the time? No, and I don't feel shame nor insecurity from it to this day. Instead, I took the initiative and decided to please her by eating her out instead, and she gave me bonus points for the initiative.
Afterward when the party is dying down, we ended up sleeping in the same bed. I had my arms out, and she came close and cuddled with me as we slept. Thus a happy ending an incredibly fun and crazy night. When I woke up, I was scared to touch her again because I thought it was all a dream. She responded in the same way as last night, and it eased that fear.
Later today, I met up with my best friend and I was recounting last night with C and he mentioned how far I came and how much I changed. Earlier this year, I was so hung up on an ex that didn't even give me the same level of intimacy that C gave me. Now I'm experiencing a new level of intimacy that I never had before, with a woman and it helped me come less needy about it as well.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
