12-17-2016, 11:56 AM
(12-16-2016, 10:52 PM)Travis Wrote:(12-16-2016, 09:17 PM)eternity Wrote: I felt like someone was thinking about me and fantasizing about me and masturbating. No joke. I think it was the girl I saw first, for dinner. I kept getting this sexual feeling like as if I was having sex, even tho I was sitting in the drivers seat of the car driving down the freeway.
If DMSI can pull this off, I will die a happy man.
It makes you wonder how we're all connected beyond the physical realm, for to feel something like that one would have to be connected on some other plane I think.
from what i'm learning about the universe through "the path", as well as shannon's knowledge, and other esoteric teachings, i believe we are connected on some other plane, in ways more than we can comprehend due to our limited perception of how it all works.
it's entirely possible i was just imagining that experience, as the way i connect dots between 2 seemingly related things can be "out there" to most rational minds.
i do believe DMSI works in such a manner, therefore making my assumption likely, in the realm of possibilities.
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I am past the hump of resistance from yesterday. Something in me lost tolerance for being in the friendzone any longer. Therefore, I have been cold and closed off to the hottest girl i know, despite the fact that i'm the only guy friend she has (i can confirm this, due to the 100+ mutual friends we have), besides her boyfriend. And since I am also not willing to cross the line of homewrecking a relationship (this is a personal preference- i don't care to hear rationalizations on why it would be OK if i do), it only reinforces my position further. Despite all this, I could tell she was almost fighting with herself trying not to give me IOI's last night, because her boyfriend was there. At one point, she stepped behind her boyfriend just so she could play with her hair, while i was talking to them both. She invited me to come over to the house her boyfriend lives, to hang out. the interaction went like this:
her: hey do you wanna come to Holus? (name changed for anonymity)
me: no. wait what? holus? what's that? no i don't.
her: hahahaa you said no before you even knew what it was! it's where my boyfriend lives!
me: it's getting late. i just want to be in bed. i've gotten to the point in life where i don't care what i'm doing- i have to be in bed by 10:30. even if i'm not asleep.
her: oh.. okay. (she looks like she's about to cry at this point, like i offended her great ancestors and entire lineage)
the interesting thing about the interaction was my complete disinterest in being around her. don't get me wrong, if it was a situation where it was just me and her, i would have hopped on. but i'm not in the mood to hang around a bunch of other guys as well, even though i'm friends with the guys that live in that house. AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FO DAT.
so i just drove home. girl, if you want my time, i'm not gonna be spending it with your boyfriend, too. Plus, I was excited to get to sleep in a bed for the first time all week! (i can adjust to floors, but man, mattresses are where it's at!)
