12-14-2016, 08:26 PM
Here's my report.
So, I didn't end up getting laid like I was hoping. But it became very clear to me that she has put me in the LTR/"won't have sex unless in a relationship with" category, and i'm CERTAINLY not in the friendzone at all, like I had feared --lots of thanks to the dimsee in that department, duh. She kept having freudian slips while we were talking throughout the night. Some part of me believes they really weren't freudian slips and she was doing it on purpose.. She was also all over me, physically. making lots of contact; some of it blatantly obvious and on purpose, other contact was seemingly on accident, but we all know girls don't touch guys by accident. When she found out about the girl that I am talking to that lives in her house, she nearly flipped out and almost walked out. She said she was so surprised and disgusted that I waste my time and energy talking to someone she thought so lowly of, and that she was jealous.
A friend warned me to make sure to be careful that she's not a "time ho", and I need to deliberate on that for a while before I understand fully what is the meaning of the situation.
Anyway, I can tell the "healing the affected person and clearing anything that prevents her from achieving the goals of the program with me" works like a CHARM. She was talking about how just being with me today she realized how naive she was about the guy she was with off and on for 5 years. A guy she really loves. And that now, she's "Grieving the L that was in love with him"... my interpretation of that was "i am taking him out of the picture".
At one point she started talking about an experience she really enjoyed when dating another guy. She was telling me about this experience with him, and said something along the lines of "when i was dating [eternity], i really loved that X,Y,Z"... like.. SHANNON. WHAT IS THIS SORCERY!? She was playing back a film strip of an experience she had of a man she really enjoyed but she saw ME as the one who provided her the experience.
So while I was driving home, she called me and was like "hey i'm disgusted at the way I feel right now. I can't believe I was so demanding and manipulative that I felt the need to impose my views on who you can and can't spend time talking to. I have no idea why I feel the way I do!"
me thinking to myself: yeah i know exactly why you feel the way you do. You connected the dots that I was talking to a girl in your house, and that me and her have a thing going on, and you don't like it because you're starting to have feelings for me again (yes, she is the same person who SM3 manifested for me, dec 31 of last year)
so shannon, for your data:
-the aura is showing signs of healing the other person
-her face was completely red at a few points of the night, something i've never seen in her EVER.
-her memory slipped into a reality where it was ME who provided such a positive experience for her when in fact it was some other guy who gave her that experience
-friendzone was nullified.
-the so called shit test from the other day turned out not to be a shit test at all, and i was overthinking things because of the emotions I needed to heal and clear.
-i survived round one of the howitzer. (duke.to.go. and chaosvrgn has me scared shitless about tomorrow tho :'( )
So, I didn't end up getting laid like I was hoping. But it became very clear to me that she has put me in the LTR/"won't have sex unless in a relationship with" category, and i'm CERTAINLY not in the friendzone at all, like I had feared --lots of thanks to the dimsee in that department, duh. She kept having freudian slips while we were talking throughout the night. Some part of me believes they really weren't freudian slips and she was doing it on purpose.. She was also all over me, physically. making lots of contact; some of it blatantly obvious and on purpose, other contact was seemingly on accident, but we all know girls don't touch guys by accident. When she found out about the girl that I am talking to that lives in her house, she nearly flipped out and almost walked out. She said she was so surprised and disgusted that I waste my time and energy talking to someone she thought so lowly of, and that she was jealous.
A friend warned me to make sure to be careful that she's not a "time ho", and I need to deliberate on that for a while before I understand fully what is the meaning of the situation.
Anyway, I can tell the "healing the affected person and clearing anything that prevents her from achieving the goals of the program with me" works like a CHARM. She was talking about how just being with me today she realized how naive she was about the guy she was with off and on for 5 years. A guy she really loves. And that now, she's "Grieving the L that was in love with him"... my interpretation of that was "i am taking him out of the picture".
At one point she started talking about an experience she really enjoyed when dating another guy. She was telling me about this experience with him, and said something along the lines of "when i was dating [eternity], i really loved that X,Y,Z"... like.. SHANNON. WHAT IS THIS SORCERY!? She was playing back a film strip of an experience she had of a man she really enjoyed but she saw ME as the one who provided her the experience.
So while I was driving home, she called me and was like "hey i'm disgusted at the way I feel right now. I can't believe I was so demanding and manipulative that I felt the need to impose my views on who you can and can't spend time talking to. I have no idea why I feel the way I do!"
me thinking to myself: yeah i know exactly why you feel the way you do. You connected the dots that I was talking to a girl in your house, and that me and her have a thing going on, and you don't like it because you're starting to have feelings for me again (yes, she is the same person who SM3 manifested for me, dec 31 of last year)
so shannon, for your data:
-the aura is showing signs of healing the other person
-her face was completely red at a few points of the night, something i've never seen in her EVER.
-her memory slipped into a reality where it was ME who provided such a positive experience for her when in fact it was some other guy who gave her that experience
-friendzone was nullified.
-the so called shit test from the other day turned out not to be a shit test at all, and i was overthinking things because of the emotions I needed to heal and clear.
-i survived round one of the howitzer. (duke.to.go. and chaosvrgn has me scared shitless about tomorrow tho :'( )
