12-14-2016, 10:29 AM
(12-14-2016, 09:19 AM)KingDavid93 Wrote: What do you believe can be interpreted from repeated anger/rage directed towards the same person, thing or event?
From what I understand, that person has either wounded you deeply, or is associated with some kind of deep seated trauma. I have feelings of rage toward a certain individual -- my first boss -- that pops up every time I'm in the middle of a healing cycle (that's what I call the rather rhythmic cycle of resistance and days of normalcy that I experience).
I've had two runs of AM6 and months of DMSI and I STILL can't let what he did to me go. In fact, it's the main reason why I decided to become an entrepreneur. And in fact, I recently had a potential deal go south because the individual reminded me so much of my old boss that I had a very visceral reaction to the situation and pretty much just backed out without hesitation.
In some ways, holding on that to that rage has helped me. Because, I am making decent money online and I'm going to expand that significantly over the next few months. On the flipside, it's holding me back because I'm literally turning things down when I encounter people that remind me of him.
On another note, people like him irritate the hell out of me and I wouldn't work them anyway, but still. There's a better way to deal with it than shut down.
