12-10-2016, 07:55 AM
Rage and anger based resistance today. Feeling super punchtastic, like I did on the first day or two of v3. Interestingly enough, the resistance has shifted with my personality changes. This anger feels more... visceral. I feel like Wolverine inside Mike Tyson's body. It's going to take everything I have to send a confirmation text to my date and then actually show up, and then actually escalate and then actually perform.
When I'm this angry and annoyed, sex is the last thing on my mind. And when I'm not really aroused, I generally can't perform. The drive just isn't there.
But... there's testing that needs to be done, so I'm going to text her, hope she doesn't respond, but if she does, show up and at least eat the P so good that she'll come out on a third time where I'm not so pissed off.
When I'm this angry and annoyed, sex is the last thing on my mind. And when I'm not really aroused, I generally can't perform. The drive just isn't there.
But... there's testing that needs to be done, so I'm going to text her, hope she doesn't respond, but if she does, show up and at least eat the P so good that she'll come out on a third time where I'm not so pissed off.
