11-19-2016, 09:25 PM
Day 9 - Reset from V1
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l3cEWRdCI8w
This will be my last post in my DMSI V2.5 Journal.
I'm going to still continue running 2.5 in the background for a few more days. Then when 3.0.1 comes out, I'll wait a few days before I hop on it and use it.
I can't really count all of the changes that occurred with 2.5. There were many. There were many experiences on 2.5 period. I feel like this version of DMSI coincided with many other events happening in my life at the same time.
Me resigning from my job was the biggest one, and probably the best decision I made in some time. I hated the place I was working. Leaving that is probably the healthiest choice I've made in some time. I lost about 18 pounds since starting DMSI. I haven't dropped much more because I can't help my sweet tooth these days. But I feel like even those desires are going to go away soon.
I had a shitty week dealing with people in general. I could elaborate on all of the experiences here, but it would just make me angry all over again, and at this point I feel almost apathetic to certain things in my life.
I finally cut my hair also. I hate the new look. I cut my front bangs off - they were down to my chin for a while. I feel so corporate all of a sudden.
Yesterday I had one of the greatest and most heartbreaking manifestations yet on the DMSI series of subs, and probably in the last 10 years period.
I meet my father every Friday for dinner. It's a chance for him and I to catch up and for me to check in on him. It's been 16 years since my mom died and he never dated anyone else or got married again. He spends his life doing his own thing now.
Anyway, we have a usual spot that we go to. While I get up and make my way around the place, leaving my dad at our table, I see this woman and my heart literally stops for a few seconds. She was an absolute dead ringer for my ex. It takes me a few moments to realize that she's not my ex.
I go back to my table and spend the rest of the dinner focused on my dad. Didn't look around, didn't try to initiate anything with anyone else. It was father and son time.
As I'm going to leave, I see her again, getting ready to leave as well. My dad and I walk out first and I hold the door open for her as she was right behind us. As she walks out she says thank you, and even the way she said it, and the way she smiled, reminded me of my ex.
My dad and I say our goodbyes and as I'm heading back home I keep playing the few shared moments I had with her, over and over in my head.
Living in NY, the chances of me seeing her again are slim to none. And the manifestation technologies, as I read from Shannon's posting, are usually an in the moment kind of thing.
I've been living in my head for the past day or so thinking about that woman. Not because of who she is, but who she reminded me of.
If I'm honest with myself, I don't even care about whether or not DMSI works anymore. I just set it at night and fall asleep to it most nights.
Lately I've just been feeling burnt on life. And I'm tired of people I deal with in general.
I don't attribute those feelings to DMSI. I've had some of these issues coming to a head for almost 6 months now.
I will say that with 2.5, even without the clearing modules, it helped heal, or at least raise, a lot of old wounds that I had a chance to work through and finally put away.
It'll be interesting to see how 3.0.1 goes along.
Only time will tell.
Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l3cEWRdCI8w
This will be my last post in my DMSI V2.5 Journal.
I'm going to still continue running 2.5 in the background for a few more days. Then when 3.0.1 comes out, I'll wait a few days before I hop on it and use it.
I can't really count all of the changes that occurred with 2.5. There were many. There were many experiences on 2.5 period. I feel like this version of DMSI coincided with many other events happening in my life at the same time.
Me resigning from my job was the biggest one, and probably the best decision I made in some time. I hated the place I was working. Leaving that is probably the healthiest choice I've made in some time. I lost about 18 pounds since starting DMSI. I haven't dropped much more because I can't help my sweet tooth these days. But I feel like even those desires are going to go away soon.
I had a shitty week dealing with people in general. I could elaborate on all of the experiences here, but it would just make me angry all over again, and at this point I feel almost apathetic to certain things in my life.
I finally cut my hair also. I hate the new look. I cut my front bangs off - they were down to my chin for a while. I feel so corporate all of a sudden.
Yesterday I had one of the greatest and most heartbreaking manifestations yet on the DMSI series of subs, and probably in the last 10 years period.
I meet my father every Friday for dinner. It's a chance for him and I to catch up and for me to check in on him. It's been 16 years since my mom died and he never dated anyone else or got married again. He spends his life doing his own thing now.
Anyway, we have a usual spot that we go to. While I get up and make my way around the place, leaving my dad at our table, I see this woman and my heart literally stops for a few seconds. She was an absolute dead ringer for my ex. It takes me a few moments to realize that she's not my ex.
I go back to my table and spend the rest of the dinner focused on my dad. Didn't look around, didn't try to initiate anything with anyone else. It was father and son time.
As I'm going to leave, I see her again, getting ready to leave as well. My dad and I walk out first and I hold the door open for her as she was right behind us. As she walks out she says thank you, and even the way she said it, and the way she smiled, reminded me of my ex.
My dad and I say our goodbyes and as I'm heading back home I keep playing the few shared moments I had with her, over and over in my head.
Living in NY, the chances of me seeing her again are slim to none. And the manifestation technologies, as I read from Shannon's posting, are usually an in the moment kind of thing.
I've been living in my head for the past day or so thinking about that woman. Not because of who she is, but who she reminded me of.
If I'm honest with myself, I don't even care about whether or not DMSI works anymore. I just set it at night and fall asleep to it most nights.
Lately I've just been feeling burnt on life. And I'm tired of people I deal with in general.
I don't attribute those feelings to DMSI. I've had some of these issues coming to a head for almost 6 months now.
I will say that with 2.5, even without the clearing modules, it helped heal, or at least raise, a lot of old wounds that I had a chance to work through and finally put away.
It'll be interesting to see how 3.0.1 goes along.
Only time will tell.
