11-11-2016, 03:15 PM
Day 10:
So I had a fight with my girlfriend of almost 2 years today. I think it might be an unrecoverable fight. It's five days before our 2 year anniversary. I think the sub was related to this. It's almost like something took me over during the event. Almost like I was looking for a way out of the relationship. Maybe it's the auto pilot people have been talking about. Deep down part of me has wanted out, I feel like I could do better at times and that our life goals don't really match. Not feeling super good right now think I will be okay. On the bright side I have noticed some positive results over the last few days. I find my self walking by girls that I would normal feel are out of my league or not for me and feeling like I have a chance. I have never felt like this my whole life. Also, I have been more emotionally open with people. I find girls are going out of their way to interact with me and or get my attention. I feel way more like myself then I did on AM. I want to journal more on this but have to go pick up a pizza.
So I had a fight with my girlfriend of almost 2 years today. I think it might be an unrecoverable fight. It's five days before our 2 year anniversary. I think the sub was related to this. It's almost like something took me over during the event. Almost like I was looking for a way out of the relationship. Maybe it's the auto pilot people have been talking about. Deep down part of me has wanted out, I feel like I could do better at times and that our life goals don't really match. Not feeling super good right now think I will be okay. On the bright side I have noticed some positive results over the last few days. I find my self walking by girls that I would normal feel are out of my league or not for me and feeling like I have a chance. I have never felt like this my whole life. Also, I have been more emotionally open with people. I find girls are going out of their way to interact with me and or get my attention. I feel way more like myself then I did on AM. I want to journal more on this but have to go pick up a pizza.
Sub history approximate total usage in months: ASC 5G -2.5 / EPRHA 5G - 3 / LTU 5G – 9 / AM 5G – 13 / E2 5.5G – 15 / DMSI 5.5G – 4 / LTU 5.5G – 11 / UMS 5.75G – 3 / OF V2 5.75G - 1.5 / E4 5.75G - 9.25 / OF V3 5.75G - Current
