Yo I'm alive. I just checked and this is actually week 4 of the AM6 refresher, so Shannon I guess I took your advice.
I almost got laid the other day. Nothing like alcohol to loosen up your inhibitions. She wanted it but she kept it together. Not much I could have done differently. It was nice to get some sugar though. It made me feel human in a way that I haven't in a long time. I had some internal momentum after that, but it fizzled rather quickly.
I'm trying to be diligent about PE, but I've struggled recently with libido and erection quality. I tried twice today and had to walk away. I've noticed my sex drive decline at a snail's pace over the past 1-2 years. It's frustrating now to have the will and the discipline to do something about my size, but my dick won't cooperate. It's troubling too to see an attractive woman and that tingle/desire/urge is faint or absent. I'm going to see my doctor about this. I sometimes think that the training I do at the gym is too hard on my CNS, but I'm not convinced. My gut says there's more to it.
Other than that, I reset my Tinder about a month ago and I've gotten more matches than ever. And we're talking attractive girls here, including some I would consider out of my league. This is surprising because I don't think my pictures are that good. They don't all respond, which is to be expected, but I've gotten some numbers and moved those conversation to text. Thing is, I eventually go radio silent because text is a vehicle for organizing a meet up, which I'm not willing to do. If you're new to my thread, it's because I'm terribly self-conscious about a) small penis and b) premature ejaculation.
I'm starting to feel bad though about leading these girls on. I contemplated texting the last one who unmatched me after I fell off the face of the earth. I'm thinking I should just delete Tinder until I'm down to meet and fuck these girls, instead of using it for some kind of selfish and half-assed validation.
I almost got laid the other day. Nothing like alcohol to loosen up your inhibitions. She wanted it but she kept it together. Not much I could have done differently. It was nice to get some sugar though. It made me feel human in a way that I haven't in a long time. I had some internal momentum after that, but it fizzled rather quickly.
I'm trying to be diligent about PE, but I've struggled recently with libido and erection quality. I tried twice today and had to walk away. I've noticed my sex drive decline at a snail's pace over the past 1-2 years. It's frustrating now to have the will and the discipline to do something about my size, but my dick won't cooperate. It's troubling too to see an attractive woman and that tingle/desire/urge is faint or absent. I'm going to see my doctor about this. I sometimes think that the training I do at the gym is too hard on my CNS, but I'm not convinced. My gut says there's more to it.
Other than that, I reset my Tinder about a month ago and I've gotten more matches than ever. And we're talking attractive girls here, including some I would consider out of my league. This is surprising because I don't think my pictures are that good. They don't all respond, which is to be expected, but I've gotten some numbers and moved those conversation to text. Thing is, I eventually go radio silent because text is a vehicle for organizing a meet up, which I'm not willing to do. If you're new to my thread, it's because I'm terribly self-conscious about a) small penis and b) premature ejaculation.
I'm starting to feel bad though about leading these girls on. I contemplated texting the last one who unmatched me after I fell off the face of the earth. I'm thinking I should just delete Tinder until I'm down to meet and fuck these girls, instead of using it for some kind of selfish and half-assed validation.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
