Spiritman Journal

[Shannon]

I am starting stage 6 tonight and so far I am a whole different person. Things I have noticed:

People lying to my face.
I am tired of people trying to manipulate me.
I am more in control of my emotions, even though I have snapped twice because of how people were treating me.
In a way I still get somewhat heated emotionally when people are really pissing me off in regards to double standards, being a hypocrite, etc..
I get looks from women that are 9's and 10's.
Women now start having conversational topics that are sexual.
I am more than ever determined to make something better with my life.
I have more motivation to reach several goals I have set and will stick with them till the very end.
I am more willing to stand up for myself.
I just do my own thing even though people tell me I am weird.
When people try to put me down, I just blow it off.
Or when people tell me I can't do something, I prove to myself that I can do it.
I have women telling me all the time I am a jerk, and that I need to be more of a nice guy. lol

I can't believe I am on stage 6 and for some reason I feel totally different inside. It feels like I am no longer who I was and don't want to be. I plan to run through AM again after I do SM. Shannon from what I have seen with this program, I wanted to thank you for creating an awesome, life changing program! I fully expect things to change more, after I run through AM a second time. I am hoping the program will deal with keeping my cool during heated moments the second time around. Shannon, I remembered you told me that I should run through AM/SM a second time, due to me not having any sexual experience or something to that effect. Should I run through each stage of AM/SM 15 days each or do the whole 32 days on the second run through?

You are quite welcome.

Every time you run through, follow the directions to the letter. 32 days if it says 32 days.