10-23-2016, 07:19 PM
(10-23-2016, 04:30 PM)Benjamin Wrote: You may have said this in an earlier post, why did you go back to 2.4? I assume because of the healing? That's why i'm using it. I know E2 wasn't really finished and most of my huge frustrations coming up were around girls so I thought maybe the more focused healing would help.
Though that could be rationalization for me giving into resistance.
(10-22-2016, 08:03 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: I MIGHT HAVE IDENTIFIED A POSITIVE LEAD TO WHY I SELF SABOTAGE when it comes to escalation.
well, i was in a deep discussion with L... i started telling her about this bock that i don't really understand why i have. which is my block when it comes to escalation.
the deeper we got into the conversation, i started to realize.... i have the information at my fingertips, as far as "what to do". I have all the knowledge I already need. It's the APPLICATION of the knowledge, which IS BLOCKED by something illusive. and i think it might have something to do with a fear of the power i will have over women, being able to successfully utilize "game techniques" to get into bed with them. OR, it might have something to do with fear of being congruent with the attitude of a player, because i know i would hold in my hand the power to crush a woman to smithereens.
WOW....... i am blown away by this discovery. however, i still don't think i've locked into the cause of the block. I'm dancing around the edges of it, finally, but I've still yet to discover what's holding me back.
edit: and with that, i think it's my cue to continue 2.4
