alpha 3

[ffaux]

I've been dealing with some intense feelings abandonment lately and it's been very emotional. And I think the last few posts about my feelings have been the result of AM undoing my validation seeking behaviour. I've been hiding my feelings because I thought I would receive disapproval for having feelings but almost the opposite has happened since I've started being quite open about having feelings and telling people what those feelings are.

It's fucking tough though. I'm really testing my friendships right now because of how needy my abandonment issues are making me.