10-21-2016, 06:50 AM
Perfect example popped up yesterday. I've been looking into some advanced applications for the control surface I have for my music program. I saw all these other users online doing amazing things with it and felt like I should do it to. But I thought about it some more and there wasn't actually any genuine desire to do it. It just felt like because everyone else did it, I should too and if I backed out of learning I was missing out and giving up.
Psychologists talk about the word should a lot. It's a terrible word because it implies guilt that we aren't doing something or that we aren't a certain way. When I see people really proficient in something there's always this feeling of jealousy and insecurity that I should be able to do it too. And if I can't, then I don't measure up as well to others around me. One of my weaknesses is my constant obsession with trying to be good at everything. It's not bad to learn new things, but when your ego is in the way you start over complicating things. A funny quote that pretty much embodies my whole messed up mindset surrounding things with my music.
The point is as a human being I only have so much time and resources to work towards something and if I spread myself too thin in an effort to be good at everything I'll be good at nothing.
Psychologists talk about the word should a lot. It's a terrible word because it implies guilt that we aren't doing something or that we aren't a certain way. When I see people really proficient in something there's always this feeling of jealousy and insecurity that I should be able to do it too. And if I can't, then I don't measure up as well to others around me. One of my weaknesses is my constant obsession with trying to be good at everything. It's not bad to learn new things, but when your ego is in the way you start over complicating things. A funny quote that pretty much embodies my whole messed up mindset surrounding things with my music.
Quote: I thought using loops was cheating, so I programmed my own using samples. I then thought using samples was cheating, so I recorded real drums. I then thought that programming it was cheating, so I learned to play drums for real. I then thought using bought drums was cheating, so I learned to make my own. I then thought using premade skins was cheating, so I killed a goat and skinned it. I then thought that that was cheating too, so I grew my own goat from a baby goat. I also think that is cheating, but I’m not sure where to go from here. I haven’t made any music lately, what with the goat farming and all.
The point is as a human being I only have so much time and resources to work towards something and if I spread myself too thin in an effort to be good at everything I'll be good at nothing.
